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PLUR4EVA
Jun 8, 2010, 01:24 AM
hello the first time I took molly or MDMA, I was at a music festival and it was the best day of my life I will never forget it I was running around talking to every random person I saw, dancing and just going crazy, it is just the best feeling possible for about 6 hours. And then after I came down off it I still felt so good and positive about every thing even though most people say they feel like and depressed after there done rolling. Now I go to raves every weekend and eat rolls but they are always clean and real because I know my pills and would never mess with dirty ones. Ive probably have rolled 50 times and it is amazing every time. People say that it loose the magic and make you depressed but I think that's only from people eatting fake ones because a lot people put some dirty in pills. I never feel depressed and never loose the magic of ecstasy it will never be as good as the first time that's for shur but every time is still a amazing experience I will always rember. Now I know that I'm deff addicted to it because I'm not going to give it up any time soon I always space out the times from when I take it so I don't fry my brain or build up a tolerance, Im just wondering how will this effect me negitivly? Before I every took MDMA I was a worried/self conscious person and I was afraid to really express myself, I was also a very judgemental jerk. And now I'm a loving person with respect for every one I don't judge people any more on the choies they make or the way they look or think. I think its just made my life all around better and changed me into a better person. I meet way more people now and have a lot more positive relations ships with all kinds of people. My question now is how do I stop this because I know that its harmful to my body even though I can't physically or mentaly tell its just so tempting when you see other people on it having the best possible time of there life. So any tips on how to avoid it with out advoiding the rave scene? I don't need to take it to be at a rave it just tends to happen a lot. How to can I completely stop myself while I'm still young.

KBC
Jun 8, 2010, 06:50 AM
My question now is how do I stop this because I know that its harmful to my body even tho I can't physically or mentaly tell its just so tempting when you see other people on it having the best possible time of there life. So any tips on how to avoid it with out advoiding the rave scene? I dont need to take it to be at a rave it just tends to happen alot. How to can I completly stop myself while im still young.

Basically this is called a 'drunk-a-log',a typical rant about how much fun it was to do something,foregoing any results.

Hanging around a barbershop will most likely get me a hair cut.

Hanging around a bar will most likely get me drinking.

Going to Raves will most likely get you?:confused:

If you want to stop,stop doing those things which put you in situations which will most likely get you rolling.

mudweiser
Jun 8, 2010, 06:57 AM
Just knowing the PHYSICAL damage should get you to stop!

Ecstasy drains your spinal fluid it also can cause long term brain damage! You can or will have memory loss and psychological problems in the future if you keep using this drug! There is no such thing as clean or dirty pills. ALL drugs are bad for you. |

PLEASE call 1800 662 HELP (if you live in the US) they'll provide you a referral to treatment centers near you!

PLEASE get help. Drugs are dangerous and will destroy you.

twinkiedooter
Jun 14, 2010, 07:56 AM
PLUR - At least you've taken the first step in realizing you ARE addicted. The next step is to read up on what this drug does to your brain and body. After reading the horror stories of this drug hopefully you will "listen up" and stop exposing yourself to raves and doing this drug. As Muddy pointed out there is no "clean" drug as all the bootleg drugs are in fact dirty. Your next supposedly clean pill could be the dirty one that permanently fries your brain or literally kills you. Are you ready to die over this foolishness? You need to remember that being high is not the way to go through life. If anything I prefer reality regardless of how boring it is at times. In time hopefully you too will enjoy reality without the crutch of illegal drugs to help you through the day/week/month whatever.

Emily94
Jul 5, 2010, 08:55 PM
I have done MDMA more than my fair share. Am I proud of it? No. Would I do it again? Probably. BUT, I set boundaries. I haven't done it since New Years, and don't plan to for awhile. Don't get me wrong, the feeling is amazing, I also loved the feeling you got that you could talk to anyone anywhere. I was VERY self conscious before doing MDMA but since I did it 2-3 times I don't need it to be social. If I want to go talk to someone I ask myself "Would I talk to them high?" if the answer is yes, I force myself to go talk to them just to prove to myself I don't need drugs.
Go to one party, or one rave sober, and you'll still feel great! This sounds weird but if your at a rave or party you get "high" just being there... Try it :)

Clough
Jul 5, 2010, 09:03 PM
Hi, Emily94!

Do you realize that anything that you write in a post on this site will be very visible when people do searches for certain things on the Internet?

I just wanted to make sure that you knew that.

Thanks!

Emily94
Jul 5, 2010, 09:07 PM
Clough,
It doesn't really matter, no one on here knows who I am. I think I am safe..

And anyone who does know me, know about my struggles I had with MDMA and how I over came it. (I haven't touched in in 5 months)

Clough
Jul 5, 2010, 09:18 PM
Okay. I just wanted to make sure that you knew about that. It has been an issue with some people on this site who didn't know how well things on this site get exposed.

Emily94
Jul 5, 2010, 09:23 PM
Things on this site do get exposed very well! I Google anything and up pops AMHD :p

Clough
Jul 5, 2010, 09:25 PM
Yes! Even your user name!

Emily94
Jul 5, 2010, 09:33 PM
Exactly, user name. My name might be Sally, Bella, Jen, who knows.