goottastic
May 11, 2010, 04:41 PM
So my friends have been telling me I have issues with "talking about my problems". My best friend since kindergarten has only seen me cry a few times, but knows I have mild depression. She tells me all the time how unhealthy it is to not cry when you need to, and such, but I don't really know what to do about it. I think my issue is I was raised believing crying is a sign of weakness. If you cry, you don't deserve to be happy. This came as a constant reminder from my father, on the soccer field... "Get up! Stop crying! Score a goal, be a champ!" after the recent death of my dog... "don't be sad. don't be sad." and basically any other situation, even as a young child, I was found crying in. So I know what my problem is, why I can't seem to cry in front of people, why I can't tell people when I'm really sad or depressed, it's because I think crying is for the weak, and I don't want to be weak. But how can I fix this?