I have this friend who KNEW something was wrong with her, she has now waited for so many months that the cancer has 'metastasized' (this was the word given to me today) and she is not doing well at all.

I also have this other friend suffering from something that she has little control over, and I feel extremely powerless over both of these people.I want nothing more than to aid them in their time of struggle,but from behind a computer screen, IDK, I am in a state of flux(bipolar times)

One is an online friend,the other is right here, where you think I could help, but I am not on the 'list' of supporters,, in fact,my S/O was of the mind that I was being an A**hole about this situation here, cold and uncaring.. ME:eek:

Somewhere down this line,communication has been a problem.

I am now in a deep low.I have already been fluctuating for the last few weeks, slow changes from this med to a new one there, etc, typical treatments.Now I have these new pressures,2 of my friends are ailing, another just got over their surgery, my life feels like it's going down the drain,, I am losing control, again.

I do have an appointment in the AM with my psychiatrist.I expect some increase in my depakote for these extreme mood swings.I also think there might be an increase of Prestiq and possibly Zoloft as well, but I am not a doctor.

My stress levels were over the top recently,he prescribed Atavan for a few weeks, then made it a little more regular, like daily, sometimes I sleep things off, but upon awaking, it's all back.

This isn't unusual for me,different times of the year maybe,but not too far from normal.

I guess I needed to put a shout out and see who can offer what... :)

Me, tick, at a loss for words for someone who I respect. KBC my heart goes out to you in this troubling time. I don't know what to say about the meds, depression meds are not my expertise... zoloft I don't have any faith in.

I can't offer anything but my thoughtful support, I hope it is enough, but I doubt it, maybe a lot of us with thoughtful support will make a difference, prayers, perhaps :D ( really despise those smiley faces at times).

Hugs a lot

Tick

me, tick, at a loss for words for someone who I respect. KBC my heart goes out to you in this troubling time. I dont know what to say about the meds, depression meds are not my expertise....zoloft I dont have any faith in.

I can't offer anything but my thoughtful support, I hope it is enough, but I doubt it, maybe a lot of us with thoughtful support will make a difference, prayers, perhaps :D ( really despise those smiley faces at times).

hugs a lot

tick

Thanks for responding tickle, anything helps right now, this is heavy on me.

Seeing little things like you writing me back does take the edge off.