Ever since I was born pretty much, I've never been able to do anything in public be it sports, eating, shopping, etc. without feeling extremely uncomfortable. My anxiety is so bad that I can't enjoy myself unless I am under the influence of alcohol.. which even then I still get somewhat anxious just not as bad, it's tolerable. Whenever a guy asks me out to dinner or anywhere that involves eating, I find a way to get out of it and probably blow a ton of chances of being with many different guys. I can't eat in front of people.. I don't know why, but out of everything that's probably one of my biggest problems. And it's not just with guys, it's with my friends, family, anyone. And I can't go to the doctor.. can't afford it. Plus I'd rather actually solve my problems rather then numb myself with pills.

Since this is effecting your standard of life, it is seroius and you should seep local professional help