lonelyheart
Jul 13, 2004, 06:24 PM
My boyfriend (02/16/81 Aquarius) dumped me (05/22/83 Gemini) on June 21st. He and I (and yes, I am a boy as well) had been dating for 19 months, almost 20. The breakup was basically my fault as about 2 months ago, we went on the proverbial "break" and I didn't handle it well, got drunk, and hooked up with another guy. I told him the very next day, claiming full responsibility for my most grievious mistake (it's really not like me to do something like that) and he, obviously, was very upset, but professed his love for me and I for him and we eventually got past it. The next two months were seemingly great. We were doing extremely well and kept speaking of our plans to be together for the rest of our lives. Then, on the 21st of June, he called me up and said he'd been lying to me for the past two months. He said he "can't" get over it "couldn't marry someone who could do that to him." I, of corse, was completely devistated and begged him to rethink his decision. He basically just said that "it's over." I don't understand how, being so enamored with each other, he can just cut me off like this and go about his life. He's going out to clubs all the time and just having the time of his life. Meanwhile, I'm a wreck just thinking about all of the times we said we were going to be with each other forever (even after the incident). I know that for all intents and purposes, this seems to be a routine breakup, but I just feel that there's something that he's not telling me. I just have this deep down guttural feeling that we were destined to be together and that this is against all the laws of nature for us to be broken up. He USED to feel this way. He was completely into our relationship. 150% all the time. I don't understand how he can just cut it off like that. How can he just flip a switch and decide that we aren't meant to be anymore? I really miss him. More than I can describe in any words. I would give ANYTHING to be with him still, but as each day passes, I feel less and less hopeful of that happening. I just don't know what to do. Does anybody have anything good to tell me? :'(