nmstrongchick
Feb 19, 2010, 02:57 AM
Hi guys,
Ugh you know when you feel so alone, that you just have to do something to try and make yourself feel better? Or understand? That's what I am doing here.
Im 19 and my first love was a guy that I met coming right out of high school. We spent 2 months together before I had to go away to university and than we did long distance. At first, I only went into the relationship - telling him that as soon as it was time for me to leave, we were going to end it, because I knew how hard and ty long distance was. But when it came time to leaving, we just couldn't break it off. We were way to into it. Anyway, to make a long story short, we dated for a year and a half. He was my everything. I don't think there is anyone out there other than my family that has meant more to me than he did. I loved him with every ounce of my heart, and than some. Even though we had our difficulties and unfortunate circumstances, I truly thought he was the one. And than it came to doing our second year of long distance when I had to go to school again.. And things went downhill. We fought A lot, I was constantly crying while I was away, he started acting so disrespectful without any consideration for my well being or feelings and well lets just say you could tell what was going to happen. But I always thought no matter what, even if we didn't work, we would end it right. We'd honor what we had, because it was so beautiful. Well no. He broke up with me OVER the phone, at 11pm the night before I came back home to where he lived.. And than to make matters even worse, he refused to see me over break in order to provide closure. Basically, the only person he was interested int aking care of was himself in the situation. It's been two months and we still haven't seen another. The last time I physically saw him we were literally both crying at the airport.. That messes with my head. A lot. And now, I just found out that 2 months later since we broke up he's involved with another girl. Seriously. And its hurting me so bad. Even though he broke up with me horribly I had been respectful to him since day 1 and kept to my word of trying to be friends. I constantly was asking how he was and the family even without anything in return. And than the first time I hear from him in awhile is him telling me that he's seeing another girl, who's truly taught him what happiness is. How can that be possible? How can 2 people date for as long as we did, and than in the end have it mean nothing? How are people supposed to move on from this?
Any advice or words of comfort will help. Im at a complete loss. :(
Ugh you know when you feel so alone, that you just have to do something to try and make yourself feel better? Or understand? That's what I am doing here.
Im 19 and my first love was a guy that I met coming right out of high school. We spent 2 months together before I had to go away to university and than we did long distance. At first, I only went into the relationship - telling him that as soon as it was time for me to leave, we were going to end it, because I knew how hard and ty long distance was. But when it came time to leaving, we just couldn't break it off. We were way to into it. Anyway, to make a long story short, we dated for a year and a half. He was my everything. I don't think there is anyone out there other than my family that has meant more to me than he did. I loved him with every ounce of my heart, and than some. Even though we had our difficulties and unfortunate circumstances, I truly thought he was the one. And than it came to doing our second year of long distance when I had to go to school again.. And things went downhill. We fought A lot, I was constantly crying while I was away, he started acting so disrespectful without any consideration for my well being or feelings and well lets just say you could tell what was going to happen. But I always thought no matter what, even if we didn't work, we would end it right. We'd honor what we had, because it was so beautiful. Well no. He broke up with me OVER the phone, at 11pm the night before I came back home to where he lived.. And than to make matters even worse, he refused to see me over break in order to provide closure. Basically, the only person he was interested int aking care of was himself in the situation. It's been two months and we still haven't seen another. The last time I physically saw him we were literally both crying at the airport.. That messes with my head. A lot. And now, I just found out that 2 months later since we broke up he's involved with another girl. Seriously. And its hurting me so bad. Even though he broke up with me horribly I had been respectful to him since day 1 and kept to my word of trying to be friends. I constantly was asking how he was and the family even without anything in return. And than the first time I hear from him in awhile is him telling me that he's seeing another girl, who's truly taught him what happiness is. How can that be possible? How can 2 people date for as long as we did, and than in the end have it mean nothing? How are people supposed to move on from this?
Any advice or words of comfort will help. Im at a complete loss. :(