ggg23
Feb 16, 2010, 05:58 AM
OK so I just joined this site, because everythings so messed up and I really need some advice from someone that's impartial if you know what I mean.
Im a 15 year old girl and I'm bi. I came out to some close friends about 6 months ago and they were all really cool and accepting. But I can't come out to any of my family apart from my step sister because my mum is really homophobic and its killing me having to keep such a big part of my life secret from her.
So my parents were away for a couple of days, so you know I had a couple of friends around last night (about 10). A girl from school came over, she's bi and we both like each other but she's in a relationship with this guy who treats her so bad. Well last night she basically asked me to make a move on her and I didn't because I don't want to be the other girl, but also because if she finishes with her boyfriend I can't offer her any kind of relationship, it would just be too difficult keeping it secret from my parents and I wouldn't want to lead her on - she deserves better than that.
So she left not long after that and I was pretty annoyed at myself and got kind of drunk. This guy was there that I really like, I have for a while but I never did anything because I always thought he liked my best friend, even though she told me she didn't like him and that I should go for it. So I started talking to him, told him I liked him and he said he felt the same. Well we ended up making out and I was really happy but then I find out my friends crying because she's suddenly decided she really likes him!! If she had tolsdme this I never would have done anything with him, but I honestly thought she didn't like him, she was making out with this other guy and everything. But she's my best friend and I love her to bits but I also know what she's like and I know she doesn't actually like him. I still feel so bad though because I hurt her, but Im hurt as well especially as after the guy said maybe 3 words to me for the restof the night :/ And this is all going to get back to the girl I like and I feel bad about that even though I don't really think I did anything wrong towards her.
I know you might think this is just stupid high school stuff, but I have no one to talk to or get advice from and it all feels just so messed up. I used to self-harm and I can feel myself wanting to do it again so, so, bad and please I just need someone to talk to and/or get advice from.
Thanks to anyone that takes the time to read this, it means a lot.
Im a 15 year old girl and I'm bi. I came out to some close friends about 6 months ago and they were all really cool and accepting. But I can't come out to any of my family apart from my step sister because my mum is really homophobic and its killing me having to keep such a big part of my life secret from her.
So my parents were away for a couple of days, so you know I had a couple of friends around last night (about 10). A girl from school came over, she's bi and we both like each other but she's in a relationship with this guy who treats her so bad. Well last night she basically asked me to make a move on her and I didn't because I don't want to be the other girl, but also because if she finishes with her boyfriend I can't offer her any kind of relationship, it would just be too difficult keeping it secret from my parents and I wouldn't want to lead her on - she deserves better than that.
So she left not long after that and I was pretty annoyed at myself and got kind of drunk. This guy was there that I really like, I have for a while but I never did anything because I always thought he liked my best friend, even though she told me she didn't like him and that I should go for it. So I started talking to him, told him I liked him and he said he felt the same. Well we ended up making out and I was really happy but then I find out my friends crying because she's suddenly decided she really likes him!! If she had tolsdme this I never would have done anything with him, but I honestly thought she didn't like him, she was making out with this other guy and everything. But she's my best friend and I love her to bits but I also know what she's like and I know she doesn't actually like him. I still feel so bad though because I hurt her, but Im hurt as well especially as after the guy said maybe 3 words to me for the restof the night :/ And this is all going to get back to the girl I like and I feel bad about that even though I don't really think I did anything wrong towards her.
I know you might think this is just stupid high school stuff, but I have no one to talk to or get advice from and it all feels just so messed up. I used to self-harm and I can feel myself wanting to do it again so, so, bad and please I just need someone to talk to and/or get advice from.
Thanks to anyone that takes the time to read this, it means a lot.