cantunravelme
Jan 24, 2010, 09:07 PM
Ok so here’s the deal, I have a soon to be ex-husband as soon as we can get this ball rolling, and the most amazing guy in my life for about a year now. The odd part about it is we have known of each other for seven years just lost touch because I was well I was a jerk and now we work together. Not a problem yea I know but it gets more complicated than that, he lives with another, but we have the worlds perfect relationship when we are together and that seems to be only on the weekend and when we sneak 20 minutes here and there during the week. So here’s what is going on….. Everything happened because he called me up one day and said he needed someone to talk to and I would be the only person to understand where he was coming from. I agreed and we decided to go to a neutral location, we went to the mall, walked around and talked for somewhere close to two maybe three hours. I got to know him very well that night and since then things haven’t been the same. Like I said we knew of each other for seven years just didn’t know anything about the other one. He and I started to talk just about every night on the phone, computer, text, so on and so forth. Things started to get complicated at the apartment that they were living in and since my husband and I had separated at that point they began to hang out at my house after work and we would all have dinner together or better yet I would cook and we all would eat…. They say a way to a man’s heart is through his stomach! We all started doing things together and it was fine because we all were just friends, until it all changed and he and I started to have feelings for the other one. We both fought the feelings but lost that battle, we both had thought about what it would be like to kiss the other among other things, so we did it we kissed and it was like fireworks going off on the fourth of July.
Since that night things have become way more out of hand than either of us has ever imagined could take over. I am completely in love with him and he hangs on my every word. We honestly have the perfect relationship except for the fact that he still lives with the girl he was/is with. We spend every weekend together we go out and do things, just the other night we went out to dinner and a movie then went back home and hung out together for hours but it felt like minutes, before we knew it, it was almost 2 am and he had to get back home before she figured something was up. I really don’t know he tells me he loves and a girl just knows when someone loves them because you can feel it in every part of your body, you can see it when they look at you and touch you, but I can’t help but feel like I’m being played for a fool when it comes to this. I would be called the other woman yet he tells me that he wants to marry me and we would have the perfect life if we were. Somehow I don’t see anything ever coming of it and that I am going to end up having to just walk away from the one person that knows me better than I know myself. I hurt all the time over this and he does too and makes me question why in the world if what he says he wants is true why he can’t do what we both know should be done.
He has told me that his grandmother see’s that he loves me and that I love him and its different with us then with anyone he has ever been with, his friends see it mine see it why is it that this is so hard. Is it really that this is just some kind of game to him? Am I really just a fool for falling for him when we all know this is going to end badly and I am the one who’s going to have to walk away? HELP!! We have both been married and both are 26 this is not how it is supposed to be games are not what either of us needs or wants but it feels like it’s a game!
Since that night things have become way more out of hand than either of us has ever imagined could take over. I am completely in love with him and he hangs on my every word. We honestly have the perfect relationship except for the fact that he still lives with the girl he was/is with. We spend every weekend together we go out and do things, just the other night we went out to dinner and a movie then went back home and hung out together for hours but it felt like minutes, before we knew it, it was almost 2 am and he had to get back home before she figured something was up. I really don’t know he tells me he loves and a girl just knows when someone loves them because you can feel it in every part of your body, you can see it when they look at you and touch you, but I can’t help but feel like I’m being played for a fool when it comes to this. I would be called the other woman yet he tells me that he wants to marry me and we would have the perfect life if we were. Somehow I don’t see anything ever coming of it and that I am going to end up having to just walk away from the one person that knows me better than I know myself. I hurt all the time over this and he does too and makes me question why in the world if what he says he wants is true why he can’t do what we both know should be done.
He has told me that his grandmother see’s that he loves me and that I love him and its different with us then with anyone he has ever been with, his friends see it mine see it why is it that this is so hard. Is it really that this is just some kind of game to him? Am I really just a fool for falling for him when we all know this is going to end badly and I am the one who’s going to have to walk away? HELP!! We have both been married and both are 26 this is not how it is supposed to be games are not what either of us needs or wants but it feels like it’s a game!