patriots10169
Jan 7, 2010, 02:30 PM
Hey everyone thanks for reading this. I am hoping I might get some good advice out of this since I don't really know where to turn to. I hope you don't mind the long post. Anyhow, my biggest issue in my life has been that I have always been so dependent on women to make me happy. Whenever I have been in a relationship, at first the relationship is great because its new and exciting but then when things calm down a bit and my girl would want space or whatever, I get frustrated because outside of my relationship, my life has sucked. The frustration starts to show and then my relationship usually ends since I have never been a very patient person or independent. This has basically been going on since I have started to date girls back when I was 14. I am 29 now. This dependency is almost like an addiction that has been very hard to break. And when I don't have a girlfriend, I would look online for hours a day searching for someone that I can get to know instead of doing productive things to better myself. Ok... so now since you know a little bit about my past, here is my dilemma. Right now many people would say my life is great because I just recently got a new job that will help my career and keep me busy, I just got back together with my girlfriend and I have a wonderful family. My problem is I don't have much of a social life because I have been so dependent on women in the past. I can never get motivated to do anything because all I want to do is be with my girl. I truly love her and don't want to scare her away on my dependency so I do my best to hide it and try to fix this issue while going out with her because I do care a lot about her and love her very much. Its not her fault that I don't have much going on besides her and my family. I guess this is more of a rant than anything but I guess I would just post this to see if anyone else knows what I am going through and if so, any advice would be greatly appreciated. I'm sorry if my post was long, I just wanted to try to describe everything as best I could. Thank you for your time.