I was really depressed about 2 months ago. This went on for almost a year and I went to therapy. About a month ago I started seeing life in a different way. Before I would drink to keep away the pain but now I see myself still drinking and I don't know why. I'm 17 and I drink more than I should. I see life in a different way. But I don't know if this is good or bad. I used to be worried about everything and just get sad over nothing. But now I'm not worried at all. I think that I should just do what I want and live life like I think I should. I just think that everything happens for a reason and the decisions I make happen because they should. I hate reality, I want a way out. I no drinking and drugs isn't the way out, but that's what I do. And now I'm sitting here typing up this problem because I just cut myself on my stomach. I had about 8 shots and I don't know what made me cut myself but I just did. I don't know what's going on. I used to think I needed help but now I'm just thinking that I'm doing this for a reason. Everything will be the way it should in the end. I used to think ending my life was the way to go, but now I think ing myself up is the way to go because I have nothing else to look forward to in life. I have no motivation so why try.

Hi, jswear28!

Do you currently live with your parents or a parent and do you have a job, please?

Thanks!

I'm still here, jswear28 and hoping that you return to this thread. I can see that you're looking around elsewhere on this site.

Thanks!

I live with my dad mostly and I go to my moms every other weekend. I had a job but got fired because I didn't show up.

OK I'll be back on tomrrow. I gta go to sleep

Hi again, jswear28!

And, you didn't show up because of why, please?

If you might be embarrassed talking about this, please realize, that I too, have had a driniking problem that has caused me problems in the past.

Thanks!

? I don't understand. Ididnt show up I guess because I was npot on the internet. I was watching TV and drinking whiskey. But riasght now, I'm going to bed. I can't stay up any longer. Thanks for replyingsda

? i dont understand. ididnt show up i guess because i was npot on the internet. i was watching tv and drinking whiskey. but riasght now, im going to bed. i can't stay up any longer. thanks for replyingsda


Okay, probably best to sleep it off. It's obvious that you've been drinking, because your spellings all screwed up.

I'll be happy to speak with you about this later.

Good night!

Thanks!