thedagger
Dec 17, 2009, 07:28 PM
I (24) live in Chicago and she lives (23) in Houston and we have found time to meet twice in the last year or so. She is a long time crush of mine and I told her that I loved her. She said she is afraid of relationships and would like to remain best friends. I accepted that but a few days later my emotions got the better of me and I said that "it's hard for me to be talking to you so much knowing that you don't have any feelings for me" and I told her that it would be better for us to be talking less to each other. She agreed. However, I could not live up to my words as I missed her dearly so I called her after three days and apologized for being selfish in friendship. We talked for a long time that night and I was really happy.
The next day, I tried calling her and she did not answer. Now it's been two weeks since, we have not talked even once. I have called her multiple times every day and she has never answered. I have also sent her e-mails and instant messages during this time and have gotten no replies. I know she is fine because my common friends have seen her online.
I am trying to find reasons for why she has stopped talking to me completely in such an abrupt manner. There could be really only be two reasons. First, being that she does not want me closer to her because she is afraid that my feelings for her would again grow over time and she neither does not want to hurt me or feel guilty anymore. Second, (just maybe) she heard something false and bad about me from a third person that has completely led her to see me in a different light.
I really miss her, more as a friend than anything else and I am desperate to speak to her. At the same time, I also want to give her the space and not bother her too much. I do not want our friendship to end like this in such a sour note when we used to talk about being there for each other in the bleakest of times. I want to talk to her and get things cleared but I want to do it in the best possible right way. I could ask one of my close friends to ask her all the questions that are tormenting my mind, when they see her online. But I think that’s not the way to go and I need to talk to her myself.
What’s the best possible way for me to get her talking to me? (Please do not tell me to give up and get a life because that’s not an option for me right now)
The next day, I tried calling her and she did not answer. Now it's been two weeks since, we have not talked even once. I have called her multiple times every day and she has never answered. I have also sent her e-mails and instant messages during this time and have gotten no replies. I know she is fine because my common friends have seen her online.
I am trying to find reasons for why she has stopped talking to me completely in such an abrupt manner. There could be really only be two reasons. First, being that she does not want me closer to her because she is afraid that my feelings for her would again grow over time and she neither does not want to hurt me or feel guilty anymore. Second, (just maybe) she heard something false and bad about me from a third person that has completely led her to see me in a different light.
I really miss her, more as a friend than anything else and I am desperate to speak to her. At the same time, I also want to give her the space and not bother her too much. I do not want our friendship to end like this in such a sour note when we used to talk about being there for each other in the bleakest of times. I want to talk to her and get things cleared but I want to do it in the best possible right way. I could ask one of my close friends to ask her all the questions that are tormenting my mind, when they see her online. But I think that’s not the way to go and I need to talk to her myself.
What’s the best possible way for me to get her talking to me? (Please do not tell me to give up and get a life because that’s not an option for me right now)