kayla1515
Nov 4, 2009, 12:09 AM
Ugh... sometimes I wonder if this life is worth living... I am only 20 years old, I have been to 11 funerals of people who are close to me this year. The most recent one being Saturday Octover 24th... it was my bestfriends 2hour old baby... the one that affected me the most though was not my real grandma but she was like a grandma to me... I met this woman 2 years ago through some friends... she was the type of woman that would give you the last nickel she had if it would help you in some way... she took me in when I had no where to go... she taught me a lot and I think I had a lot more to learn from her but suddenly she was gone. We knew she had cancer but when it got really bad it just took her... I mean it was only like 3 or 4 day warning and she was gone. On top of it all I found out my biological grandma has cancer as well... 2 days prior to this other wonderful woman passing away. I haven't spoken to my dad and stepmom in over 6 months... their choice not mine. My mom is the only family I have here in fargo and she informed me 2 days ago that she is going to move back to her hometown to be with her mother during this time. I feel like my world has come crashing down on me in less then a week... I don't know where to go from here. I don't know where to turn... any advice would be greatly appreciated... I am too young to be going through all this... I am not trying to have people feel sorry for me... but if I want advice I need to lay down what is on the table..