Missinsumthin
Oct 31, 2009, 03:16 PM
Hello every one,
Im 19 years old female.
Right now I'm in deeeep ,but I'm keeping my mouth shut.
Today my best friend,who I consider my life,Told me that there are thousand other problems He is facing and I'm not much important as they are.
There was a time He n I used to spent whole day together,But now Im a Problem for Him?
I Don't know what to say,How to react?
I just Accepted my mistake that Im sorry my friend. It was my mistake...
He use to call me His "smile source",n Now He is acting like He is very happy without me. .
I don't know why this is happening to me? Why ?
I loved him like anything! I'm accepting mistakes which are not even mine!
I want to cry but I cant.. .
No one knows what's going on inside me. .
I want to die,But I'm afraid of the pain.
Am I a Looser?
Yes! I am. . But just tell me? Is this my mistake that I love him?
More then my family! More then anyone in this world!
I know it's a fault that I'm not loving my family,I don't care about them. But it's the truth!!
It's a damn truth! I don't care about anyone in this world! I was not like this some years before. . But I'm changed. Now the person I only care is my Best friend! He is the person I love,n He is my best friend As well.
What to do?
I don't want him to be sad,I love him. And I care about Him. Should I leave him for a while?
When I start thinking about this,the second thought comes in my mind is "Why u call yourself His friend,If you want to leave him in his hard days?" Just tell me? What should I do?
Regards.
Im 19 years old female.
Right now I'm in deeeep ,but I'm keeping my mouth shut.
Today my best friend,who I consider my life,Told me that there are thousand other problems He is facing and I'm not much important as they are.
There was a time He n I used to spent whole day together,But now Im a Problem for Him?
I Don't know what to say,How to react?
I just Accepted my mistake that Im sorry my friend. It was my mistake...
He use to call me His "smile source",n Now He is acting like He is very happy without me. .
I don't know why this is happening to me? Why ?
I loved him like anything! I'm accepting mistakes which are not even mine!
I want to cry but I cant.. .
No one knows what's going on inside me. .
I want to die,But I'm afraid of the pain.
Am I a Looser?
Yes! I am. . But just tell me? Is this my mistake that I love him?
More then my family! More then anyone in this world!
I know it's a fault that I'm not loving my family,I don't care about them. But it's the truth!!
It's a damn truth! I don't care about anyone in this world! I was not like this some years before. . But I'm changed. Now the person I only care is my Best friend! He is the person I love,n He is my best friend As well.
What to do?
I don't want him to be sad,I love him. And I care about Him. Should I leave him for a while?
When I start thinking about this,the second thought comes in my mind is "Why u call yourself His friend,If you want to leave him in his hard days?" Just tell me? What should I do?
Regards.