Okay,
So here's the deal. I was born from an affair that my mother had on Steve whom she was married to with his best friend. I do know who my bio father is but what Im trying to figure out is this:

Ive been married for 5yrs within the last 6-8 months I had been talking to another guy online. That ended up turning sour. (I fill so many voids in that boys life its not even funny :( ) I met said guy who is 21 on a free game site. Thought I was helping him. :eek::mad:

What I want to know is why I can't stop trying to find extracurricular activities to fill my time. I am a housewife and my husband is going to school to become a Naval Flight Officer which flying is his dream. :D

I love my husband so much, and I really want to stay faithful but recently Ive been chatting with my longterm friend who has been in love with me since 7th grade and I started re flirting with him to which I know it breaks my husbands heart.

What I would love to know is why I continually do this. Why can't I stop? Is it because of what I am? Born from an affair destined to be this way?

I did have a job in CT and in GA but it is hard to find one here when you don't have a degree. And I don't do well with stress so no fastfood joints for me.:eek:


I fear my marriage is beyond repair when we've come so far already. At this point in time we are sleeping separately.

Please can someone tell me what I should feel other than disgust,anger,suicide ? Ive already thrown a pill bottle at him last night in my anger.:confused:

:cries:


What I want to know is if your born from an affair are you doomed ?

warning: harsh comments ahead.

To answer your question, you are not doomed because you are born from an affair your mother had. I've never heard of this excuse. Are you serious? Did you just make this up to make yourself feel better?

You are a married woman. If you have issues with your husband, sort it out with him first before bringing in another guy to create even a bigger mess. How are you being fair to your husband? How would you feel if your husband treats you the way you are treating him? You should not be flirting with anyone, in person or on line. Just because its electronic flirting doesn't make you a faithful person. The grass isn't greener on the other side. Go talk to your husband about your problems, and seek counselling to save your marriage. Don't go blaming your mother's mistakes for your own mistake. You are in the wrong here, no matter what angle you look at it. Stop all contacts with the new guy. Stop playing games online. Tell him you are married and flirting is unacceptable. Emotional unfaithfulness is just as worse as physically cheating. Please be considerate to your husband and at least give all the efforts you can to save your marriage.

So, let me get this right. You have a problem with commitment. You're bored. Your marriage is in trouble. You're flirting with other guys. Now you want to blame this on the way you were conceived.

Hmmm. Interesting reasoning. Are you suggesting there is a genetic pre-disposition to being a cheat?

It doesn't sound as if you're willing to make an effort - everything is too hard - looking for work, saving your marriage, being a person that behaves with integrity.

It's all someone else's fault isn't it?

If you really want to change things in your life - change your attitude. Make an effort to act with maturity and integrity and think about the hurt and pain you inflict on others via your selfish behavior.

Put some positive effort into your marriage. Get employed or at least doing something for others rather than surfing on the net for random guys. So what if you have to work in a fast food joint for a while? At least you'll be contributing instead of just taking.

What you should feel is anger at your own lack of responsibility and integrity. Make yourself someone that other people can trust, not a potential cheat.

Get a job, any job, and make something positive of yourself.

You can do wrong all you want, and blame it on anyone, but the truth will still be its all on you, not your mama, or your daddy.