Hi All,

I dont know how much i have to write it here to explain my pain.I request u all to be please patient with such a long writing of my life.

"It all started in december'2007-I got introduced to a girl who lived thosands of miles away from where i was working.It happened with me-i dont know what others feel....but after talking long hours with her --my heart started feeling SHE is the one whom i always dreamt of a loving person.I know its little surprising,but i felt that i liked her everytime i talked...with her AND so after 5 days-i expressed my feelings of love.

"SHE was surprised saying me that I havent seen her once also-but i luvd her becoz of the person i know she is when i talked with her.
She always said--that i shldnt just give such comments of love where we knw we hvnt met each other once.But-my heart had tht feeling that "I luv her fr the person she is..when i talk with her freely and thats it'.

She dint believe it and may b she was rt---her view was..how can somone luv a person in 4-5 days like me.She THEN SAID THAT LET THE TIME GO...and IF ITS LUV..SHE WILL FEEL IT NATURALLY"

I told ok...becoz...i never want a relationship which is ONE SIDED.
Finally,the day arrived when she confirmed that YES she too felt luuv..being wth me.

Frm then on 7 months-it ws a biss for us--we spent whole nts talking abt family nd life everything.it ws a PRICEELESS gift for me..her luv.
SUDDENLY-a BOOM and life changed for ever.She couldnt CLEAR 2 subjects in her 2nd year...for which it wld be a YEAR delay .
During tht time,my family was in a tension of planning a proper time for marraige without any delays.
SO,I DIISCUSSED WITH MY FRNDS AND PLANNED AND REQUESTED MY GF TO NOT TELL ABT THE RESULTS TO ANYONE --mainly BECOZ I WANTED THE TEST PAPERS TO BE RE-EVALUATED FIRST as
the marks were just opposite to what she was expecting and BECOZ I KNEW THAT SHE GAVE THE PAPER WELL AND MAINLY i knw that it wld create delay tensions at home and all.

This is was the TRUE reason and GOD knows it--that i did this for our luv and to handle the family things little slowly
would nt be tensed that dely may cause they were in talks abt marriage timinings.
I explained here that "we r NOT LYING to make up a relationship,i will tell everything as soon as re-evaluation results r out'.And,i did the same--i told my parents abt it..and that it was my idea to tell
them later so that no tensions...and I luv her...nd so wouldnt let anything ***..up...tht mit cause delay'.

Then,i also explained her the reason behind not telling anyone for sometime----'its something i thot of...only with our luv in my heart nd dint want any issues'.
But,OHH LORD SHE FELT AND BELIEVED I BETRAYED HER....WITH SUCH A LIE IN A RELATIONSHIP.SHE TOLD ME THAT I M A BLODDY LIAR...WHO RUINED HER LIFE
EMOTIONALLY'.SHE COMPALINED ABT ME to the entire family that " I was cheating her...."
I ws shocked that....i did something fr our luv only---not anyone elese.NOR did i lie in anyway-i told my parents after her re-evaluation results that how i was worried and asked the girl to not tell.

But no point---her whole FAMILY has warned me of dire consequences and specially she told--that I m a cheater.
I dont mind what other think but I CRY becoz my person took a SECOND TO tell that i betrayed her with lies and that people like me...r born to mk her cry.

I m dead becoz only GOD KNOWS and I know that--what tensions wr in our family that time when her results came out? It took sleepless nights..and i knw i hurted her...with this--BUT I dont feel
that for this reason--"SHE ONLY believes that i m a liar and a loose chap"
I have been crying till now......that i did tht fr our luv,but the person whom i thot wld understand....tells me...that i m a liar.I luv her so much...tht....its been 5 months--i m jobless..sitting idle at home and
thinking is relationship and promises so cheap.

Plus with all this happening,i was nt to explain fully becoz i was suffering terribly in my OFFICE for my job....by working whole nts.But,i cldnt keep it and lost it...in June.
Then,also,i tried to mk up my luv to believe me....trust my heart--bt instead she complained of harrasment on phone and she cldnt study.
SHE left me when i needed her most and everyday...at nt..i cry thinking...how cld 1 who says she luvs me..now hates me so much.

THE MOST IMP THNG HERE IS its a LDR..and frnds i know how painful LDRs can be...--at least if i was with her...i cld mk her understand.But,my fate is dustbin....i had to loose my job with dire debts
on me....that running to her to kp this up---fr that 200 thngs r in my head with money problems.

I ask everyone..why does GOD make us luv someone whom we wont get..and why GOD has md us so poor that life is dead without money earning?

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I feel i missed mentioning some other important aspects of this.Our relationshionship is an LDR and i know how tough it is keeping up the long distance:(

Appreciate your comments
-Rohit

Next time don't use chat language that took me forever to read and understand.

First of all, God made us loving he does not make us love. There is a big difference.

Second, it was not your destiny, you chose the path for yourself. And I don't think it is possible to love someone so fast. Things went too fast especially cause it's a long distance relationship.

Third God does not create money. Money is man made.

"First of all,I apologize for using short terms(chat words) here,i wont repeat it again.

Next, Thanks a lot "none12345" for giving your views-I appreciate that very much.
I wanted to ask or basically know that why do you feel that "Since I expressed my feelings of love so fast,so it doesn't go as love"

Trust me,i still remember that on 31st December'07 night-I talked with her whole night.The more i talked,heard her heart-the more my heart wanted to and always dreamt if she was here-it would be wonderful.Those days,i remember,my only want was to look at my mobile everytime to see what she messaged or not.

It so happened and till before the severe break up,God knows that i see my cell whenever a message comes just to see if it was her message.

All these happened to me naturally for her....i felt my life changed and found interest in everything...and so on.

Truly speaking,all these from me was natural and i fell in deep love with her and want to spend life with her."

I have never fallen in love anytime till I met her.She meant everything to me and all I know is that in a long distance relationship I could -maximum is calling or messaging,I felt handicapped or helpless.

Sometimes,I used to feel terribly sad and tears rolled down because during that moment I wanted to be with her fully-but I couldn't so far."

Personal REQUESTHello all,I would very much appreciate if possible to read my post(I know its very lentghy) but during this time-i really need your views,advise from all of you.MY heart is terribly crying for my fate

OK wow

Umm. People can love each other real fast but it seemed to me she was never in the relationship to start with.

I have no idea what tension thing is going on here kid?
What she had a test result or something?
And you told another person the marks?
And now she hates you for it

Tell you.. if your so called relationship can be borken up because of that.
Then I'm sorry to tell you this.

But there was no relationship to start with.
This does not read like a real love relationship it reads like
Someone who is kind of obsessed with the person that he is in love with.
And a girl that.. really just does not care.

My advice move on with your life
Do you really want all this drama in your life?

Oh and the god thing?
Yeahh humans have free will right.
Is that how it goes? I don't know.
I have not really read that book.

But I know this we shape our world around us.
You Chose! To love her
You opened up all the doors.

You need to get a hold of yourself there.. really.. you are just drowning in self pitty
If you fall down on the street? Do you just lie there? Or do you pick yourself up and keep going..
You feel over man
Get back on your feet
Get your life back on track

Love is not.. sitting at home crying and distroying your life over someone else.. that is.. obsession.

Learn to deal with and understand your emotions.
And leave this women alone
I would be pisst off as well if I told someone to not call me anymore and all they did was call me and spout of quotes and stuff

You cannot change how people feel.. FREE WILL my friend.. it's a #%#% I tell you :)
But you can change your actions..
And sitting at home jobless.. is rather pathetic.. don't you think?
And losing a job.. over a girl? That's even worse.

May I suggest you cut the past loose and make future plans with just you?

Holding on to something that is not available to you is not wise, nor healthy.

Accepting things you cannot control, is the better way to move forward, and heal from old wounds. It may not be the easy, quick fix, your looking for, but you will be glad you did the work for yourself, by yourself.

Good luck, getting your stuff in order.

I have no clue what I just read... but I think it was about a long distance relationship. Did you ever meet in person? Or were you like pen-pal buddies? I also don't understand the whole test thing. Was it a test for school? I agree with above.. you met a girl, you became attached but she probably didn't see it as strongly as you. We don't know her circumstances, but sometimes its nice to talk to someone. Maybe you were her online penpal / texting mate. I can tell you from personal experience that its EASY to text a girl and be mushy, and dreamy, and etc LDR. Before you meet her. But once I met this girl in person, I was dissapointed. That just shows you that everyone puts their BEST foot forward in email / text /even phone... but you just can't match actual physical chemistry. Its either there or its not. I would focus on yourself, focus on your job, school, work, etc and try and meet some local girls who you can develop a friendship or relationship with. Don't dwell on this anymore.