StillLoveHim
Oct 3, 2009, 02:34 AM
I'm with my boyfriend for 3 years and we do have problems now and then so I don't know if it is because of that or what. Long story short, I've never been with that guy, I haven't even seen him in years, but he's on my mind almost every day. When I hear a song it reminds me of him, when I think about love I think of him. I dream about him to put me into sleep, I even think of him sometimes during sex with my boyfriend. He wasn't my first boyfriend or love, we weren't together, he had a girlfriend and couldn't be with me, but we've always flirted and teased each other a lot. He was my friend for many years and I think he's married now. But I feel like I love him, love him like crazy. He is everything I've ever wanted in a guy, we just couldn't be together. Not to go into details about it and complicate.
I think my current boyfriend loves me, but I stopped saying I love him back because of this. He noticed it but doesn't know why. I can't tell him why. He knows about that guy but just as a fact of my past life. I never bring him up.
The truth is me and that guy we'll never be together, but my heart longs for him. I don't want to breakup with my boyfriend, I love him, but it's not the same I feel for this guy. I think I'm still in love with a memory I had of him. I don't even know him anymore. Why are my feelings for him so strong and won't go away after so many years.
I'm so confused what's happening and really need some help.
I think my current boyfriend loves me, but I stopped saying I love him back because of this. He noticed it but doesn't know why. I can't tell him why. He knows about that guy but just as a fact of my past life. I never bring him up.
The truth is me and that guy we'll never be together, but my heart longs for him. I don't want to breakup with my boyfriend, I love him, but it's not the same I feel for this guy. I think I'm still in love with a memory I had of him. I don't even know him anymore. Why are my feelings for him so strong and won't go away after so many years.
I'm so confused what's happening and really need some help.