cassie2204
Sep 28, 2009, 07:45 AM
heya I just signed up here because I got something on my mind for month,
I am turkish born in germany. My father send me to england in 2007 to learn english and to have a good future and education. I stayed at his friends house he had a daughter same age as me and we became very good friends. He also had an take away where we used to work all night till early in the morning and after that college. It was really hard but I did manage to get my qualifications. My english got perfect now. Last year I met that guy he is a doorman first time I saw him I thought wow he is so georgus. My friend asked him if I could have his number but I didn't really want to and I got all embarresed in case he would say no... but he did. Any way we where textin a couple of times till I lost interessed in him he was nice and lovely personality, but my friend kept on saying english boys arend good they are users, but I thought mh she lived here all her live life she should no maybe she is a good friend trying to keep my on track but then I realized she was all into asian guys, (she herself is turkish english aswell). Her dad was really strict abaut religion and everything but my dad was easy going because we where a bit more modern turkish. But my mam was strict very strict. My dad was like my best friend to me I told him everything... anyway in July 2008 I got into a big problem my frinds dad kicked me out because I said I was bad infuence for his daughter because he faund out that she was hanging around with asian boys, but as a best friend I thought she said they where all my friends. I got a bit money of my parents to keep me going trying to look for another job and get help but one day that I just kept on thinking about that guy that I met the doorman we where still textin but I was so sceared of my friends dad and what my frind said about english guys I could not go and date him. He was so lovely, but when I was bymyself I knew I could talk to him. He was there for me every thing he gave me money when I needed to I felt stupid taking money of someone but to be honest I did need it. I took me to jobcentere everything to my out for a meal and it as such a good feeling to be free and not being sceared that someone is behind you watching you to give the tukish community gossip, I really didn't care what they did because I felt so comfertable when I was next to him...
finally we started seeing each other in October 03 after two month I couldn't even afford my rend anymore and my parents money ran out. He asked me if I wanted to move in with him and his family they had a big house it was lovely. When I met his parents I knew where he got the kindness from his mother was an half asian but very modern... his dad was english and he has got one younger sister and 4 little brothers and one older one I couldn't believe he was from such a big family. Anyway xmas he helped me giving cv out and I got a job for x mas temp... by that time I was so happy that I'm with such a good caring person although I was a bit sceared on our first date because he was so big and tall lol... any way early this year I got my new job at morrisons and by then we save money 2 gether and got our own first flat... it was nice and lovely so I thought I ask my dad to visit me. He came for two weeks... but after the first week he started to pick on my boyfriend that he hasn't got a good education and that he would be my type but I said I don't really care its my problem and how the hell should he know how I feel about him... I mean I love my dad but he kept on being nasty... the next time I came over to germany for one week to see my mam... but she obviously didn't know about my boyfriend only my dad did... I missed her a lot but then the 2 day it was all back to normal , it felt like prison to me... I wasn't allowed to do this and that... I had to help her with cooking and cleaning the house that took us all day... but she kept on saying your a muslim these are your dutys but to be honest why the hell did they leave a muslim girl on her own in whole england... and never had turkish friends because I didn't get on with them I know its my culture but I didn't know how to be and act I just wanted to be free and like everyother girl to have fun going out or to fall in love... I just couldn't wait till I got back to england I could smell the freedom in the air... I saw my boyfriend I was so happy as he took me into his arms. But then againm my dad came the next month for 3 weeks... and then again the mext month with my sister for one month... my boyfrieds snapped and was relly pissed of he said:" i dont want someone in my house who is calling me and idiot and sayin things that im not educated after i looked for his daughter while his "best friend" put u on the steests, he is un respectful he can't come and go when he wants i want to be with u otherwise i would just stay with my family." of cause he was right but then my dad was my dad at the end of the day I told my dad he had to leave otherwise my boyfriend would finish me... my dad did go and stayed at his friends house... I was so upset and then I get a phone call of my mother... I was very scared my heart was beating so much I answered and she was just shouting so much what kind of person I was telling father to leave and I should have gone with him but I just couldn't I love him so much I couldn't do that after what he did for me and really it was my dads fault... any way now next week is my 1 year anniversary I'm in germany now at the moment to see my mam... but my mam is trying to keep me here she said I had to forgett him... but I just can't beacsue I love him and he was the one I had my first time with... so as an excuse I told her I will go back to england to get my other clothes and say good bye to him... otherwise she said that she will never ever talk to me again and will forgett me... so I love my mam to bits u can never replace your mother but the way she is its so making me run away... and I love my boyfrind as well and I know he is the most honest and trustful person I the world , he did say as well that he wants to marry me one day... so would I bt it will be sad not having your mother on your wedding day won't it? So please I hope u understand how I feel I don't know what to to should I leave him and live the live that my mother wants me to live or should I be with the person I love and happy with... but then again what if it doesn't work out I will loose both... :( I promised my mam that I will come back... but what shoulkd I do know please some one tell me... I going back to england 2 morrow... thanks for reading all this xx
I am turkish born in germany. My father send me to england in 2007 to learn english and to have a good future and education. I stayed at his friends house he had a daughter same age as me and we became very good friends. He also had an take away where we used to work all night till early in the morning and after that college. It was really hard but I did manage to get my qualifications. My english got perfect now. Last year I met that guy he is a doorman first time I saw him I thought wow he is so georgus. My friend asked him if I could have his number but I didn't really want to and I got all embarresed in case he would say no... but he did. Any way we where textin a couple of times till I lost interessed in him he was nice and lovely personality, but my friend kept on saying english boys arend good they are users, but I thought mh she lived here all her live life she should no maybe she is a good friend trying to keep my on track but then I realized she was all into asian guys, (she herself is turkish english aswell). Her dad was really strict abaut religion and everything but my dad was easy going because we where a bit more modern turkish. But my mam was strict very strict. My dad was like my best friend to me I told him everything... anyway in July 2008 I got into a big problem my frinds dad kicked me out because I said I was bad infuence for his daughter because he faund out that she was hanging around with asian boys, but as a best friend I thought she said they where all my friends. I got a bit money of my parents to keep me going trying to look for another job and get help but one day that I just kept on thinking about that guy that I met the doorman we where still textin but I was so sceared of my friends dad and what my frind said about english guys I could not go and date him. He was so lovely, but when I was bymyself I knew I could talk to him. He was there for me every thing he gave me money when I needed to I felt stupid taking money of someone but to be honest I did need it. I took me to jobcentere everything to my out for a meal and it as such a good feeling to be free and not being sceared that someone is behind you watching you to give the tukish community gossip, I really didn't care what they did because I felt so comfertable when I was next to him...
finally we started seeing each other in October 03 after two month I couldn't even afford my rend anymore and my parents money ran out. He asked me if I wanted to move in with him and his family they had a big house it was lovely. When I met his parents I knew where he got the kindness from his mother was an half asian but very modern... his dad was english and he has got one younger sister and 4 little brothers and one older one I couldn't believe he was from such a big family. Anyway xmas he helped me giving cv out and I got a job for x mas temp... by that time I was so happy that I'm with such a good caring person although I was a bit sceared on our first date because he was so big and tall lol... any way early this year I got my new job at morrisons and by then we save money 2 gether and got our own first flat... it was nice and lovely so I thought I ask my dad to visit me. He came for two weeks... but after the first week he started to pick on my boyfriend that he hasn't got a good education and that he would be my type but I said I don't really care its my problem and how the hell should he know how I feel about him... I mean I love my dad but he kept on being nasty... the next time I came over to germany for one week to see my mam... but she obviously didn't know about my boyfriend only my dad did... I missed her a lot but then the 2 day it was all back to normal , it felt like prison to me... I wasn't allowed to do this and that... I had to help her with cooking and cleaning the house that took us all day... but she kept on saying your a muslim these are your dutys but to be honest why the hell did they leave a muslim girl on her own in whole england... and never had turkish friends because I didn't get on with them I know its my culture but I didn't know how to be and act I just wanted to be free and like everyother girl to have fun going out or to fall in love... I just couldn't wait till I got back to england I could smell the freedom in the air... I saw my boyfriend I was so happy as he took me into his arms. But then againm my dad came the next month for 3 weeks... and then again the mext month with my sister for one month... my boyfrieds snapped and was relly pissed of he said:" i dont want someone in my house who is calling me and idiot and sayin things that im not educated after i looked for his daughter while his "best friend" put u on the steests, he is un respectful he can't come and go when he wants i want to be with u otherwise i would just stay with my family." of cause he was right but then my dad was my dad at the end of the day I told my dad he had to leave otherwise my boyfriend would finish me... my dad did go and stayed at his friends house... I was so upset and then I get a phone call of my mother... I was very scared my heart was beating so much I answered and she was just shouting so much what kind of person I was telling father to leave and I should have gone with him but I just couldn't I love him so much I couldn't do that after what he did for me and really it was my dads fault... any way now next week is my 1 year anniversary I'm in germany now at the moment to see my mam... but my mam is trying to keep me here she said I had to forgett him... but I just can't beacsue I love him and he was the one I had my first time with... so as an excuse I told her I will go back to england to get my other clothes and say good bye to him... otherwise she said that she will never ever talk to me again and will forgett me... so I love my mam to bits u can never replace your mother but the way she is its so making me run away... and I love my boyfrind as well and I know he is the most honest and trustful person I the world , he did say as well that he wants to marry me one day... so would I bt it will be sad not having your mother on your wedding day won't it? So please I hope u understand how I feel I don't know what to to should I leave him and live the live that my mother wants me to live or should I be with the person I love and happy with... but then again what if it doesn't work out I will loose both... :( I promised my mam that I will come back... but what shoulkd I do know please some one tell me... I going back to england 2 morrow... thanks for reading all this xx