For a whiles now I've wanted to deeply to get in touch with God again, I lost track of him when I got into high school and I let so many things cloud my mind. And I have so many demons that haunt me. I just want to get these out of me so I can start a new, I will be moving to Australia soon to be with my fiancé. I do not want to burden myself and him with insecurities and demons that I should have let go a long time ago. And yet it seems that I can't, I let them harbor in my heart and at times it gets so bad that all that bad makes me physically ill. I need to tune myself with God and I think that once I am able to do that I can start to heal and become that person that I have been aching to be, I am so close to that but I just can't let go. I need advice from you lovely people on meditation methods possibly or things that I can do for myself to improve. As well I have another question, I was meditating with a mantra recently and suddenly the mantra began to reverberate in my ears, it was the most curious sensation... but I have no idea what it was, does anyone has a clue what that might have been?

In an attempt to answer to the second part of your question. The acoustics associated with the area where you were meditating may have something to do with it. The sound reverberating from the walls can enhance a state of meditation.

I think that some ancient cultures deliberately practiced mantras in confined spaces such as caves for this very reason.

In an attempt to answer to the second part of your question. The acoustics associated with the area where you were meditating may have something to do with it. The sound reverberating from the walls can enhance a state of meditation.

I think that some ancient cultures deliberately practiced mantras in confined spaces such as caves for this very reason.

It was a fantastically odd sensation... that might be it, I think I will continue to meditate like that