I've been in a 10 year relationship that has always been like fly fishing. We've been over for 2 months. I look over our past 10 years and don't understand why I was so passive. When we met it was magical for both of us. I was love sick and it showed. We ended up moving into an apt which was her first apt with 2 months of dating. She freaked out everyday that things weren't right with the apt. She ended up meeting this old flame and they made out down the street. She denied anything happened and I knew she lied to me. 2 years ago this same woman popped into the picture she found my wife on myspace. The started an emotional affair that lasted 4 months. Mean while my wife is not giving me any love or affection. One day this gal wrote me and told me this stuff was going on. I confronted my wife about it and she denied it. The next day my wife told me she was no longer in love with me and was interested in this woman who mind you had a wife and a baby coming soon. So... I ended up coming to pick her up and bring her home. She immediately was online looking at personals. I confronted her and she apologized. God I'm an idiot. So... 2 years later here I am single. She broke up with me one morning when I was telling her that I wanted to get counseling with her. I wanted to get help for us, because she was obviously not happy with me. She told me she was done and no longer in love with me. I went up to the managers office and signed the break the lease contract and moved. I've been staying in contact with her. She tells me she loves me, but not in love with me. What's weird is I do want her back. I just am not sure why. She feels broken and lonely. She is seeing a woman who is still in love with her ex and sleeps with many other people besides my wife. She complains she has no connection with anyone. Why do I want bi polor girl?? Help my sanity!

Disappear from her life, and stop all contact with her whatsover... then your sanity will eventually return.