OK I am pathetic and I want to know WHY I am so in love with an . Despite his amazing qualities that have me head over heels he has cheated on me multiple times, dumped me three, never showed me off, and NOW we are dating because he wants to be single (but not hook up with other girls... yeah right OK bull... ). And we went from saying cute, doing cute, and being fantastic to just not texting me at all. Why do I keep going back to him? Thank god this time my heart isn't broken... its on the verge but he already destroyed me. I just can't find interest in any other boy because ALL they do is hurt and hurt and hurt. How do I move on and heal? Besides nc which, while hard, I plan to do. But its more then ncing him... its falling in love again or allowing myself to even look at a guy and not suspect he's trying to play me.

You have allowed this guy to use you like a tampon. I think you continue to allow it to happen because of your low self esteem. If I were you I would focus on ways to boost myself confidence.

how do I move on and heal? Besides NC which, while hard, I plan to do. But its more then NCing him...
Don't PLAN to do it, do it now and do it right!!

its falling in love again or allowing myself to even look at a guy and not suspect he's trying to play me.
When you have healed, you will feel differently and hopefully will be healthier and more cautious. Until then, you are going to keep going in the same circle with this guy.


https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/relationships/moving-beyond-nc-320828.html
From Feb, 22, 2009


By Talaniman
You are allowing him to stir up old feelings by chatting with him and getting stuff out, in the meantime he gets to boink whomever because your still responding to his crap. Go back to NC and ignore him, and give yourself sufficient time to really heal.

Quote:
Ive gone nc..
And you broke it too soon, now go back to it.


Same answer for the same problem. This time, DON'T break NC! Your making this harder than it has to be. The goal is to love yourself, and not put yourself in the situation where your doing things with people who will hurt you.

Stop looking for the easier softer way, as false hope that things have, or will change, keeps your mind playing tricks on you and keeping you stuck in the cycle of misery, pain, confusion, and disappointment.

Funny how this works.

Based on the information you provide it is almost as much your fault as it is his really. Now every other guy in the universe has to pay the price.

Other than that, I agree with the above.