Usually I'm laid back and pretty cheerful.

Lately, I've been quite angry. I'm going to be pretty honest in what I've been going through and how I feel:

•I have a cousin whom is 14 and she's dressing up like a total whore, not kidding you-- she looks like a child prostitute. It really pisses me to watch her dress like that. I've mentioned it to her but she's a teen and I'm not her mother. As for her mother, she doesn't care. Well I care. Seeing her like that just makes me think of all those nasty guys that are in their 40 something's oogling at her. Makes me sick to my stomach- and for some reason I want to punch her. I won't but I'm just ugh...

•I know two year olds are bound to get into trouble. Anyway, my house was super clean and I was making dinner. I come to the living room to find it a mess and raspberries creamed onto the carpet. I smacked my daughters hand, explained to her about how bad it was and sent her to her room. I ended up kicking the couch, and ripping the carpet apart. I was just so mad at how much I cleaned that in just a few minutes it got all dirty.

•I was talking to my stupid mother. I ended up throwing the phone across the room.

•Yes, I am on my period.

•I can't sleep at night because I feel a huge anger cloud over me.

•I don't cry when I'm mad.

•I quit smoking forever. It's hard.

•My closest and dearest friend tried meth a week ago. I punched her in her face and she returned the favor. She got the stupidest tattoo and is in a relationship with the stupidest guy who is in JAIL. I want to punch her again.

•During the day I'm pretty okay. It's around the evening when my anger sets in.

•If I start doing my yoga the anger fades. It's the only thing that helps.

I really don't like this feeling. I don't know what triggered it. Maybe it's all the crap that I've pushed down is finally exploding-- maybe?

Anyway. I am exercising- I try to do as many positive things as I can. I am NOT violent towards my daughter NOR am I mean to her in any way.

I just don't know what going on. I am just so angry.

Ah.

Sarah

I have been in a weird blah funk depression lately that is like a gray cloud out of nowhere too. I don't get angry I just start feeling gloom.
I don't feel like doing anything.
I don't want to do anything.
I just want to let everything go and pick up the pieces after they fall and break.
I don't know what it takes to get through this other than determination.

I have been in a wierd blah funk depression lately that is like a gray cloud outta nowhere too. I don't get angry I just start feeling gloom.
I don't feel like doing anything.
I don't want to do anything.
I just want to let everything go and pick up the pieces after they fall and break.
I don't know what it takes to get through this other than determination.

Good to know someone else is going through something like I am. It's not good that we're going through it but just good to know. Hope that made sense.

Determination- ha. It's all I got.

-sigh-

Thanks N0Help I knew I could count on your reply ;)

Sarah

Sometimes it is our surroundings that can have a negative effect on our mood. That is good that the yoga helps calm you down, maybe continue to do more activities that will help to keep you calm. And ladies all know that being on your period can definitely effect the mood, as it is due to the hormonal changes our body goes through. Many think that I have a real mellow personality, but I know 1st hand that I can be either very hot or very cold and I can get a pretty mean temper and argumentative. Why not try boxing, kick boxing, or some other martial arts... cause it can feel sooo much better after punching and kicking something for a few hours.. and it's guilt-free, it helps me through those days.

I used to get like that, all the time. My cats have gone flying, just for being there. At one point, my two-year-old almost got thrown out of the car window. I actually rolled down the window and thought about it.

Luckily for her, I asked her to just be quiet for a couple of minutes. She went silent. Then after a while I asked how she did it. "I juss counded a while, like, 1,2,3..." She's 20 now.

Anti-depressants made my anger go away. Was the anger because of a deficit of seratonin or dopamine? Maybe it was the monthly dip in progesterone, happens every month to us females. Why do we get so angry some months and not others? Some women never get angry at all.

Yoga is a good thing. Being out of control is something to avoid. Allowing your little girl to watch you deal with emotional stress and see you do successful problem-solving is ideal.

Why not try boxing, kick boxing, or some other martial arts...cause it can feel sooo much better after punching and kicking something for a few hours..and it's guilt-free, it helps me through those days.

At my gym we do have that and trust me I punch with full force. I've been thinking of getting my own punching bag put in my basement...

Thanks for the input GG ;)


Yoga is a good thing. Being out of control is something to avoid. Allowing your little girl to watch you deal with emotional stress and see you do successful problem-solving is ideal.

Hm well my daughter has never seen me punch or throw things around--- when I'm around her I am pretty calm-- or at least shove all my feelings down. I don't want to give her the impression that throwing things when your angry is the right thing nor is any other sort of violence.

It happens when I'm alone-- everything just sets in and ugh.

My friend is still doing meth and I've confronted her and showed her the horror vids on YouTube and gave her the facts yet she's still being a flucking idiot-- like I can't explain how angry that makes me feel. UGH.

Sarah

Getting a good punching bag would be a good idea, and maybe even some boxing gloves. Hey it is exercise too so it has it's benefits. It sounds like your friend may have an addiction and in denial. If it is pretty ba maybe plan for an intervention with other friends and her family to make her get help.

Everyone has there down times and no one is excluded from these "quicksands of life" that can be around any corner at anytime in our life. The good news is that we can prepare ourselves from these sink holes and come out on top.

1. We need to realize that our outlook on life can bring about anger. Anger, because we feel overwhelmed with the problem that may directly or indirectly affect us. To this I say, if we can do something to correct the problem, then we should do it. If we can not because it is out of our hands, then let it go. We are not in control of what others do. But we can choose to be a positive role model though.

2. We choose our attitude. Each morning when we get up, we choose how we are going to react to those around us. Mentally choose to be aware of what and how you are going to react. Feeling bad, just because you are on your period, does not give a person the right to "challenge the whole world" even though we feel like it. Learn to take deep breaths that supplies oxygen to our brains. This way we can think more clearly. Instead of killing the cat, we can now think about why we want to kill it!

3. Counting to ten during our most frustrated moments. This does work. Try learning to count in a foreign language. Your concentration is now on trying to remember your numbers and you forget your anger.

4. Read a funny book. Whether a joke book or a book for women. Remember, there are other women who feel just like us. But hearing another make fun of our frustration adds humor to our life.

5. Finally, take some time for yourself and enjoy moments in your day. Whether exercising or resting, get those hormones balanced. The punching bag is also a good idea!

Remember, if you look for something good, you will find it. The same goes for, if you are looking for something bad, you will find that too. Rita