AngelaCarterFan
Jul 20, 2009, 04:30 AM
Do things ever really change?
Has anyone on this site had a mental health problem/bad experience/problems in their life and turned their life around in a profound way? To the extent that they look back on their past and not recognize themselves?
I have been trying to improve my life for a long time, and have made progress, but I have a long way left. It's almost as though, with every step I take forward my path to recovery becomes not shorter, but longer, and the more progress I make, the more problems are revealed. If anything, it's like I'm on a treadmill that speeds up when I do, so that no matter how fast I run the best I can manage is staying in the same place.
I don't want to go into a long, boring dissection of my issues, but I'm in need of inspiration. I've been fighting some problems for a while, and like I said, made some progress, but I'm tired, I'm weary, I feel like an old, old soldier who has been fighting in the same war for years with no end in sight and wants more than anything else to just lie down and go to sleep, get some rest. That isn't a euphemism for suicide, I'm at no risk of that, I just genuinely want some rest, but I know that life will just march on regardless and I'll get left behind again, so I have to keep going.
What I am looking for are some true stories of change, of happy endings. Not Hollywood, Fairy Tale happy endings, but happy endings for the real world, so that I can see that it can be done and there is hope for me. I don't want a miracle; I just want a little hope.
Has anyone on this site had a mental health problem/bad experience/problems in their life and turned their life around in a profound way? To the extent that they look back on their past and not recognize themselves?
I have been trying to improve my life for a long time, and have made progress, but I have a long way left. It's almost as though, with every step I take forward my path to recovery becomes not shorter, but longer, and the more progress I make, the more problems are revealed. If anything, it's like I'm on a treadmill that speeds up when I do, so that no matter how fast I run the best I can manage is staying in the same place.
I don't want to go into a long, boring dissection of my issues, but I'm in need of inspiration. I've been fighting some problems for a while, and like I said, made some progress, but I'm tired, I'm weary, I feel like an old, old soldier who has been fighting in the same war for years with no end in sight and wants more than anything else to just lie down and go to sleep, get some rest. That isn't a euphemism for suicide, I'm at no risk of that, I just genuinely want some rest, but I know that life will just march on regardless and I'll get left behind again, so I have to keep going.
What I am looking for are some true stories of change, of happy endings. Not Hollywood, Fairy Tale happy endings, but happy endings for the real world, so that I can see that it can be done and there is hope for me. I don't want a miracle; I just want a little hope.