laladada
Jul 13, 2009, 07:34 AM
I've been reading many posts on here for a while now and have decided to ask advice for myself.
Well here it goes. I had been with this girl for almost 5 years. All through high school and a little before that. We started as really good friends and just got closer and closer. We've grown together and have learned through each other. I was basically a part of her family and she was a part of mine. We went on countless trips with each other and were always together and were happy with each other for the most part. We had are fights and arguments but we always figured them out. The first 3-4 years were great but I have to admit that the last year of our relationship I took it for granted. I would reject some things that she wanted to do simply because I did not want to do them or I would rather hang out with my guy friends. This got worse and worse and I simply was too ignorant guess to see what I was doing. She would bring this things up every once in a while but I did not make a big enough effort to truly change. I am not saying that she never did anything wrong but I know that I messes up and I realize it more than ever now. About a week before graduation she said that she needed about a week long break. I did not want it but I agreed to it. After a week was up we started hanging out again like we used to but after a couple of days she dropped it on me. She said that she "Still loved me but just not in that way anymore". She said she wanted more freedom and wanted a change. She was crying as she said this so I know how hard it was for her to do this. I am not mad at her because she is being completely honest with me and that is all I want.
I took it hard and for the next couple of weeks was a wreck and did some things I regret. I was pathetic and did everything that could push her away such as begging for another chance countless times and pretty much being a clingy bug. After all this I have realised that no matter what I do right now I cannot change the way she feels. I've been going about 2 weeks now with NC. The thing is that we are both attending the same college this fall. I want to move on and stop thinking about her but I am afraid of what going to the same college might bring. I know that we will both be meeting so many new people while at college but still the thought of just seeing her around with another guy makes me sick. She has been a huge part of my life and this has been the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. Thanks for reading and any advice would be greatly appreciated.
Well here it goes. I had been with this girl for almost 5 years. All through high school and a little before that. We started as really good friends and just got closer and closer. We've grown together and have learned through each other. I was basically a part of her family and she was a part of mine. We went on countless trips with each other and were always together and were happy with each other for the most part. We had are fights and arguments but we always figured them out. The first 3-4 years were great but I have to admit that the last year of our relationship I took it for granted. I would reject some things that she wanted to do simply because I did not want to do them or I would rather hang out with my guy friends. This got worse and worse and I simply was too ignorant guess to see what I was doing. She would bring this things up every once in a while but I did not make a big enough effort to truly change. I am not saying that she never did anything wrong but I know that I messes up and I realize it more than ever now. About a week before graduation she said that she needed about a week long break. I did not want it but I agreed to it. After a week was up we started hanging out again like we used to but after a couple of days she dropped it on me. She said that she "Still loved me but just not in that way anymore". She said she wanted more freedom and wanted a change. She was crying as she said this so I know how hard it was for her to do this. I am not mad at her because she is being completely honest with me and that is all I want.
I took it hard and for the next couple of weeks was a wreck and did some things I regret. I was pathetic and did everything that could push her away such as begging for another chance countless times and pretty much being a clingy bug. After all this I have realised that no matter what I do right now I cannot change the way she feels. I've been going about 2 weeks now with NC. The thing is that we are both attending the same college this fall. I want to move on and stop thinking about her but I am afraid of what going to the same college might bring. I know that we will both be meeting so many new people while at college but still the thought of just seeing her around with another guy makes me sick. She has been a huge part of my life and this has been the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. Thanks for reading and any advice would be greatly appreciated.