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Nucklehead22
Jul 8, 2009, 02:48 PM
Hello, first I would like to say you guys give really good advice here, and I've read many other topics looking for situations like mine. I just wanted to explain my story though.

Currently I am 16; and I have had previous girlfriends before this one, but they have all been, well lets just say... for fun? Anyway, this girl that I was with for 6 months, she made really happy, and it definitely wasn't just "for fun". She has strict parents, so we had to keep it from her family. She can't even have male friends! Even at school. It was tough for her to live a double life. Another problem was she had a best friend who she "flirted" with constantly everyday. I had a talk with that guy. Lets just say he never came back or talked to us. My mistake I suppose, I should have not went so harsh on him. So everything was fine for the longest time, we had a few dumb arguments, but usually 30 minutes later we would come back to each other both apologizing. Better off having arguments and knowing how each other feel then no communication, I suppose. Now, things got rough at the end where the guy came back and she started spending more time with him. That's when she told me she liked him before, so she always let him touch her and all that. By touch I mean, everywhere. She seemed perfectly fine with it too. I was going to beat the out of that guy,but she convinced me not to. Forward a couple weeks later, she broke up with me. Blocked all contact from me. Started connecting with the other guy who HAS A GIRLFRIEND APPARENTLY, and just forgot about me. I find myself hating her, wanting to kill her, yes it's crazy but I can't explain why I feel this way. So what I'm wondering is, why do I seem to always never think about her in a negative way, while she picks off every bad thing about me? And how hard will it be to see her with another guy next school year? It will happen. I already know it is, her friends have told me. Why isn't karma getting to her? I know for sure that I've received my fair share of karma, I've done multiple surgeries, gotten mugged on the streets, and almost hit by a car. Thanks.

N0help4u
Jul 8, 2009, 02:58 PM
You can't wish karma on people. Things happen in there own time good or bad.
In fact wishing bad karma on others can come back as bad karma on you.
You say you can't feel negative about her but you find yourself hating her, etc...
You feel this way because you have feelings, you had a bond, you feel betrayed and you are hurt.
You need to work past these things and get on with your life.
Maybe bad karma isn't coming on her because maybe this guy is the right guy for her. Who knows. You have to take care of you and let her go. Even in the worst of relationships people will still have strong feelings for the abuser but they know they can't be with them.

Nucklehead22
Jul 8, 2009, 03:15 PM
You can't wish karma on people. Things happen in there own time good or bad.
In fact wishing bad karma on others can come back as bad karma on you.
You say you can't feel negative about her but you find yourself hating her, etc.....
You feel this way because you have feelings, you had a bond, you feel betrayed and you are hurt.
You need to work past these things and get on with your life.
Maybe bad karma isn't coming on her because maybe this guy is the right guy for her. Who knows. You have to take care of you and let her go. Even in the worst of relationships people will still have strong feelings for the abuser but they know they can't be with them.
Well, It's not like I pray every night bad karma gets her, it's the fact she said she wishes I was dead and in fact all this crap is happening to me. But yeah, I have to move on, but seeing them together will kill me inside.

N0help4u
Jul 8, 2009, 03:18 PM
Yeah that is because any time you are with anybody you can potentially form a stronger bond than you realize.

Elousia
Jul 8, 2009, 07:15 PM
My brother I am 28 and I tell will tell you this, your feelings are real and I am not going to justify that they're anything but. You are important to her and don't think your not. She just doesn't want to be with you not to mention she is young well. Have relationships, be with girls, but please understand that these years of your life you should really be focused on school and everything else secondary. Having as much fun as you can without hurting others but take it for what it is. School is number one that nobody in life can ever take away from you. Trust that doing it by the book of life is the way to go, give all to shcooling brother because life will reward you for it. Know that even if she was with you right now, she won't be in 10 years and you wouldn't want that for yourself in ten years anyway. You had her man, be happy that she cared for you enough to give you some love. Take it and run because there is such an awesome person waiting for you later in life in this world right now that you will regret wasting any more time on this matter. Put your emotions to the side and be the happiest person alive.

Nucklehead22
Jul 9, 2009, 05:02 PM
Thank you guys for the advice/comforting words... I'm really pissed off it had to end this way, but arg... guess I have no choice now.

Nucklehead22
Jul 19, 2009, 05:31 PM
Threads merged, and edited

Now she's with some other guy (I hated him before we even got together so that's like adding salt to the wound) as well as flirting with every guy and all that. I've gotten over that surprisingly. We've never talked since the break-up, and her friends/family all say she hates me and wishes she never met me. Despite that, no matter how hard I try hating her back, when I listen to calming music I think of the good times we've had. Am I pathetic for thinking about all the happy times when the other person clearly hates me?

Romefalls19
Jul 19, 2009, 05:51 PM
No, it's called love. It sucks, but worth it at the same time. When you think about her, do something productive. That's how I got over my ex, whenever I would think about her, I'd do something else. Usually it was going for a run, going to the gym, playing hockey, writing. I spent a lot of time on this site, got a lot of kicks in the arses too.

friend4u178
Jul 19, 2009, 06:00 PM
No its not pathetic , in fact quite normal. You see we tend to put the person who dumps us on a pedestal and just think of the good times.

Make a list of the good and also the BAD things about your Ex , and be honest , I bet you'll be surprised at how many things are actually on the BAD list.

roxypox
Jul 19, 2009, 06:46 PM
No your not pathetic! Not at all!

Not everyone hates their x's, so if you don't you don't and like Friend4U said; some put them on the pedestal. f4u's idea is pretty good, it might give you some perspective on her and the relationship.

And also like Rome said; find something else to do when you start to think about her... push her out of your mind somehow.

Nucklehead22
Jul 19, 2009, 06:51 PM
Yeah but it just makes me feel so crappy knowing she hates me but I'm thinking about her in a "positive" way =(

roxypox
Jul 20, 2009, 12:32 PM
I sympathies with that! I really do.