I't been awhile since I last asked any questions so,here goes.2 yrs ago in march of 2007 I was shot twice in the chest by 2 40cal hollow point bullets.Fired from an o.p.p officer who will remain haed.I have a criminal record which I have stated before.I can't give all details it would take to long,but the bottom line is I sustatained a cut to my neck.deep enough to cause death aclose girlfrien at the time was living inmy home.I came home from work at 2:30pm on a nice sunny day in march.Iwhen I arrived home from work my roommate who will remane nameless for now,had hidden my keys to my car which also had the keys to my gararge.all I wanted to do was get some tools from the garage,but couldn't find my keys.I,m trying to make this as short as possible.Anyway an argument started between myself and the girl living with me.Yes we were intamite at times but she still rentd a room upstairs.She said she did not move the keys which I now know to be bull.Avery large bookself had been knocked over during the argument.On top of that self was a red PLASTIC beer bottle opener,I picked it up and figiting with it in my hands.Soon after a I had a7inch cut across my throat.Bottom line is An ambulance was called by her to my address.Well not only did paramectics show up but so did a # of cops.Iwalked in the direction of the ambulance,now of all the cops on scene not one offficer draw any type of weapon except 1.An 11 month rookie who had know idea what f--- he was doing.Iwalked past him so now he is behind me,short story he told me to drop the so called weapon which I mentioned was a bottle opener,I turned to shw officer that it was indeed a opener,he was no farther than15 ft away when he pepper sprayed me then drew his hand gun and fired twice into my chest.My daughter was present along with her boy friend plus 2 people that were renting rooms.So know after 2 yrs I suffer from ptsd,I lock my doors at all times of the day which I don't consider normal for me.Ispend my time between hospitals,docters and of course my therapist.My life now is completely f------.Icurrently have know income except wellfare,540$a month I own my own home if it was not for my parents of 76 yrs of age I would loose everything.I wake up to sweats because of reacurring nightmares relating to the incident.I can know longer work,so I am waiting for a decision by the canadian government,as to whether I qualify for disability.I did not deserve this shoting and spent 14months behind bars at one of the super jails in on.If anyone can give me some advice on civil legllities or how to help with espences on how to pay or qualifyfor money to pay therapists,it would be appreciated.My current shrink is wonderful he helping me probono,I can't continue doing this to him he deserves to be paid.He specilizes in nothing but war vets from over seas.Also how do you let the anger go with the cop that shot me.I should also mention that all charges against me were dropped after 14 months,attempt murder 2 counts of asault with weapon,asult and some over minor charges.I know it's a messed up story,but it can be verified by usuing the net,o.pp shooting in springwter township,on.Ijust told this stor because apparrently talking about it is supposed to help.Thanks for reading my lengthy novel,lol.Paul.

I just want to say that I think you are doing the right thing continuing to get help for post traumatic stress disorder because in my opinion that is exactly what you have. You went through quite an ordeal to say the least. I also think the police man was in the wrong that's obvious or they never would have dropped the charges. And you should pursue a lawsuit or something against them, I'm not sure how that all works but I would start by contacting an attorney for a consultation. One last thing, just remember forgiveness is not for the other person it's for you!