Inaru
Jun 9, 2009, 11:10 AM
I think it's just extreme stress caused by breaking up with my boyfriend, but since then I've been having weird dreams and terrible thoughts and such. It started with morbid dreams that disturbed me more than frightened me. Like I had a dream someone was killed slowly and I had to watch. Then I started to hate myself and thought about hurting myself, maybe even killing myself, like once I was driving and I thought about driving into something to hurt myself or kill myself. Then my mind would do something that's hard to explain, but I would feel like my head was growing while my body is shrinking, until I can't even feel my body anymore, and all I could see in my head was a little black dot. People have noticed I was acting different, more mellow and blank. What was all that?
Note: I don't feel that way anymore. I just want to know what it was.
Nowadays, I still get dizzy sensations and headaches... I also tend to get angry. Last time I got mad, I punched my clock multiple times until it broke. My knuckles hurt for a couple days.
Note: I don't feel that way anymore. I just want to know what it was.
Nowadays, I still get dizzy sensations and headaches... I also tend to get angry. Last time I got mad, I punched my clock multiple times until it broke. My knuckles hurt for a couple days.