melzroxz
Jun 6, 2009, 08:33 AM
Hey! I'm 16 years old and a few months ago I met this guy through my student youth organization. We did our flirting here and there and I started crushing. I've never had a boyfriend or kissed anyone and me being 16 I was excited to feel like wow finally maybe me and him can get together. So our organization takes us all to a getaway type thing for the weekend. Me and him bonded and we kissed! Lol finally I know. From there he said he wants to wait before he gets in to something with me, b.c he works alt of jobs so he wanted to get this one job and see how his schedule looks because he wanted to be able to give me the time I deserve. So about once a week for more then a month we would see each other. I would be the one to ask though. We txted all the time, there was not a day that went by with out one of us hitting the other one up, and he would actually hit me up so as far as txtin goes he was good. We never talked on the phone and I didn't really want to say anything about that but you know that did bother me. Well time continued and I ended up falling in love with him :confused:smh... so my friend cares about me alt and she started digging up dirt on him and finding things out. So he was still talking to his ex, and they rarely kiss, you know that means they still mess around or w.e so she convinced him to tell me and he did so me I'm really understanding, wedont go out its okay and he told me that they just still talk b.c they work together. Me being an idiot I was like you know if I'm in the way of something then let me know and he was like noo blah blah blah okay so we continued and nothing changed I still had feelings. He told my best friend that he thinks his ex is pregnant and he doesn't know if he can tell me this was in the beginning of everything so I knew the whole time that there was a possibility but I didn't want to pressure him to saying anything I wanted him to tell me on his own and I didn't want to blow up my friends spot so I kept this info in the back of my mind. I then found out that he has plans on going away and he might bring his ex so at that point my friend was like cmon let him go. So I told him we should just be friends. That was soooooooooooo hard to do. So I sent him this email a couple days after b.c the way he took it wasn't too good so I sent him this email and I told him all my feelings I told him I was falllin for him and that he made me really happy but this in between relationship and friend wasn't working b.c I was getting hurt and in day well be together. So he called me a while later and we talked about it b.c I TOLD him to call me he had finally told me that his ex might be pregnant and that he loved me, but he said all that cause he probably felt like I knew something so he should just fess up I think and that whole he loves me thing he said cause it sounded nice. Okay so now here I am we still talk, as friends but he still flirts and he says he loves me but you know how friends say that to each other but I confronted him about that and I asked you me you HAVE love for me and he said no, he meant it differently, so this feels like he's playing a game and I found out he is still with his ex andshes in love with him and I don't know what to do b.c me and him still talk he flirts every now and again says he misses me says he loves me and yeah I go with it sometimes but I cut off the lovey dovey flirting and it hurts sooo bad cause I love him he's my first guy experience he's smart cute but he keeps breaking my heart ikeep to myself but he knows how I feel and still he hasn't made the effort to get in a relationship with ne. ever since we became just friends he doesn't hit me up at ALL I do it all the time and its hurts even more cause its like I have to hold this in friendship together.. wow you know I thought he loved me and all he a virgo he's been through madd and I try to justify his actions but damnnn mann. Last week a big group of my friend got together and we went to the park and chilled I was doing okay trying to get over him and all and we get all close like old times and it feels so right. At the end of the day we ended up kissing. I told him later on we can't do that we friends blah blah. I'm just looking stupid and still he doesn't hit me up I know he cares about me but dammmmnnn lol it sucks I got to get pass him I need to get over him I don't know how I can't help but text him after a couple of days I break I just love him I don't know what to do smh I'm too young to be in this position but in in it and I got to get out.