I just want to fix things between us. My relationship with my ex girlfriend has always been a roller coaster ride, and it's been my fault. I get upset really easily, and when I get upset I just stop thinking logically. There have been so many instances where I just break up with her and she ends up basically begging for me to get back together with her.
Well, my girlfriend and I just got into one of our biggest fights before moving out of college for the summer - we're both going to be seniors next year. About three weeks into the summer, she gives me a call telling me that she's been doing some thinking and that we should break up. We've been going out for two years and I know that she is the one for me. I'm the definition of a deusche, and I've always been flirty with other girls and just enjoy being the center of attention. And - I know this sounds sadistic - I sort of enjoyed making her worry that at any moment I can just break up with her and go for somebody else.
Now that the tables have turned, I'm absolutely devastated. For the first time in my life, I absolutely balled my eyes out for hours. It's been two days since the break up and I've probably had a total of 1 hour of sleep. I can't go on like this, and I can't keep myself from calling her at night.
Last night, I called her again and asked her if there was somebody else, and she said there wasn't. But I kept asking her, and she finally said that she is attracted to someone else, but isn't even sure if she wants to act on it. I don't know what to do. Yesterday, I wrote her a letter and she gave me a reply. It seems like I can't do anything about her anymore.
She's not the type of person who wouldn't just lose feelings for me - I've lived with her for two years and I know this. If there's any way I can get her back, I need to know.

You both need to deal with your own issues on having a relationship. She sounds like she changes her mind according to what she is thinking at the time. You sound like you need some anger management counseling.

For now you should just stay broke up and work on figuring how to be a better partner for each other or move on.

You had 2 years to make it right. You took her for granted. Hopefully you've learned your lesson.

It's out of your control now. She already knows that you want another chance. It's up to her if she wants to give you another shot. Don't put anymore pressure on her.

While you wait for her, make sure that your attitude adjustment is permanent, otherwise you will break up really quickly even if you get back together.

It seems like you are more interested in her after she decided to leave. Or let me say that you realized how much love her only after she decided to leave. You have stop contacting her. That is a must. Don't even reply to her text messages. You will see a lot of similar posts on this thread. Believe me, I am in a similar boat and hate it, but I won't call her.

Spoiled player guy got played, and pi$$ed girlfriend made him cry.

Learn your lesson and grow up and get real, and leave the games to the kids that enjoy them.

According to your description, you get upset a lot and stop thinking logically; you define douchbagginess; you flirt while in the relationship; you enjoy making her worry that you will dump her; and you think that she's not the type of person who would just be delighted being done with you.

That translates into you being a spoiled, irrational, tantrum-throwing manipulator who doesn't have much self respect, doesn't especially deserve it, has a sadistic streak, and is delusional about knowing someone he has lived with for two years. You're being pretty tough on yourself!

Lighten up. The pain you are feeling will soften you and make you more considerate of other people's emotional vulnerabilities. Chances are, your future relationships will be a little more conscious and kind, maybe a lot. You can take a step in the right direction by being a gentle man and saying goodbye without trying to hang onto her ankle.

And yes, this sucks. But if you let her go, learn, and make some decisions about your behavior, neither you nor the women you are with have to suffer like this.

Tao

Oh boo hoo. You acted like an arrogant prick and now the tables have been turned.

Learn your lesson, what you give out comes back to you and healthy, mature women don't like being treated like $hit.

She put up with it for 2 years, and now she's had enough - probably because she met someone that treated her nice.

You've had your chance and you blew it big time. Learn the lesson and move on.

You were the player, who got played. You play with fire, you are going to get burned. Learn to treat girls better next time

I have no doubt that were your girlfriend dumb enough to return to you, you'd resume your obnoxious behavior. Leave her alone and get some counseling.