NeNe112
Jun 1, 2009, 06:08 PM
Hi, I wrote a letter to a girl. It explains what I'm feeling at the moment. We are really good friends and we both like each other. In the letter I am really detail and eveything. I want to give the letter to her, but I'm afraid of what she'll think abou it. What do you guys think of the letter. The letter is kind of long, but please read it fully and help me out! Thanks
Here is the letter:
Sometimes I start to think about the past and how awesome it was. How much time we spend together. All that we would talk about. Everything that would go on between us. Then I look at the present time and I wonder. And as I wonder on, I start to fear something. I fear what will become of us. How our friendship will probably suffer, and that's something I cannot let happen. But I don't know what to do. We barely talk anymore, and I feel that I can't ask you anything because I'm worried what you'll say. I try to make things still go as smoothly as possible, but I feel that I'm the only one trying. Have you ever wondered why I keep sending you all those random e-mail? Its because I want to keep some sort of communication with you. That way not everything will be lost, you know? But the thing is, you don't write back. You don't let me know how things really are with you. And although I try and I try and I keep sending e-mail, I feel that I'm doing all that in vain. I feel that you do not care anymore or something. There is a two way street in a communication, but I only see myself going, but no one meeting me half way. Just so you know, I haven't stopped feeling the way I do about you. In no way, shape, or form. What I do feel is a sense of separation. Like we have grown apart, yet we are still together. Like we don't see each other anymore, yet we see each other in a weekly basis. Its like you're not even there yet you are at the same time. And it saddens me to feel that way. It saddens me to see you and not be able to give you a hug, or to go to you and just talk until either of us has to go. Or to be able to look at those beautiful eyes of yours for more than five seconds. I sometimes feel like a stranger. Like we don't know each other. Like nothing had ever happened. Like we never really met. And I don't like feeling that. I wish that I could just go up to you and forget everything that had happened this past month and just to hang out with you like we used to. I wish that I can look you in your eyes like I used to, and see you blush and look away embarrassed. I wish I can hear your sweet voice at night like I used to, and fall asleep thinking about you. Don't get me wrong, I could still fall asleep thinking about you, but I sometimes choose not to. The reason why, is because its sometimes easier to sort of go through this, and think about you less. Although that is really hard too, as I am constantly thinking about you. About you smile, your laugh, you voice. I think about us just doing what we used to. Talk, hang around, talk some more, and in the special events, hold each other's hands. I think about you, and I can't help but smile. I can't help myself to not laugh. Because I have so many good memories with you. Yet there are other times when I think about you, and I get kind of sad. Because a lot of things have changed in such a short time. A lot of think have stopped very quickly. And that was very suddenly. I knew something's were supposed to have changed, yes, but not to this extent. Not to the extent that we sometimes don't even say goodbye to one another. Not to the extent that when I see you, I feel rather uncertain of what to do, than what I used to feel before, which I felt so happy every time I saw you. Don't get me wrong, I still feel excited when I see you, its kind of different now. I really hope that this is temporary. Because I really fear the byproduct of what this will cause. And I really do not want to experience that. I wish that I could tell you all this and so much more in person, but when can I do it? Every time that we are talking, its never enough time to exchange words other than "Hey, how are you?". You know what I mean? I also miss knowing what goes through your mind. You know how I'm always asking you what you are thinking? Because I love knowing what is going on in your mind. I like knowing you thoughts, and wondering if by any struck of luck, that you were thinking about... me. And every time that you were, you don't know how happy that makes me inside. How I then start to think about you and what I must had to do in other to have met you. How our lives where intertwined in the most oddest, unique, yet awesomest of ways. And then I think what would have happened, if we never had met. How I would have been. How you would have been. And then I thank God that He gave us the opportunity to meet each other. For I truly never in my life have met anyone like you. Anyone who is so... you. So beautiful in the outside as you are on the inside. Someone who is smart and actually knows what I'm talking about. Someone who has a different sense of humor that coincidentially matches with mine perfectly. Someone who's heart is made of solid gold. Someone who will go out of her way to help some else without a second thought. Someone who is so passionated about God and they we she talks about Him. Its quite inspiring to tell you the truth. Someone who you can't help yourself and must look at and think, "wow... she is something special". And you truly are. You have so many qualities that make you so unique, so awesome, so you. That if I had the chance to change anything about you, I wouldn't even dare to change a hair off you. For I like you just the way God made you.
This is probably a lot to take in in such a short time, and I do apologize. I just wanted to let you know how I'm feeling. And like I said before, nothing has changed in the way I feel about you. Also, I don't expect you to respond to this, or to mention this when we see each other, unless you want to. This is more so that you know what I'm thinking about. Hope that it doesn't change anything.
Well take care and God bless you.
Here is the letter:
Sometimes I start to think about the past and how awesome it was. How much time we spend together. All that we would talk about. Everything that would go on between us. Then I look at the present time and I wonder. And as I wonder on, I start to fear something. I fear what will become of us. How our friendship will probably suffer, and that's something I cannot let happen. But I don't know what to do. We barely talk anymore, and I feel that I can't ask you anything because I'm worried what you'll say. I try to make things still go as smoothly as possible, but I feel that I'm the only one trying. Have you ever wondered why I keep sending you all those random e-mail? Its because I want to keep some sort of communication with you. That way not everything will be lost, you know? But the thing is, you don't write back. You don't let me know how things really are with you. And although I try and I try and I keep sending e-mail, I feel that I'm doing all that in vain. I feel that you do not care anymore or something. There is a two way street in a communication, but I only see myself going, but no one meeting me half way. Just so you know, I haven't stopped feeling the way I do about you. In no way, shape, or form. What I do feel is a sense of separation. Like we have grown apart, yet we are still together. Like we don't see each other anymore, yet we see each other in a weekly basis. Its like you're not even there yet you are at the same time. And it saddens me to feel that way. It saddens me to see you and not be able to give you a hug, or to go to you and just talk until either of us has to go. Or to be able to look at those beautiful eyes of yours for more than five seconds. I sometimes feel like a stranger. Like we don't know each other. Like nothing had ever happened. Like we never really met. And I don't like feeling that. I wish that I could just go up to you and forget everything that had happened this past month and just to hang out with you like we used to. I wish that I can look you in your eyes like I used to, and see you blush and look away embarrassed. I wish I can hear your sweet voice at night like I used to, and fall asleep thinking about you. Don't get me wrong, I could still fall asleep thinking about you, but I sometimes choose not to. The reason why, is because its sometimes easier to sort of go through this, and think about you less. Although that is really hard too, as I am constantly thinking about you. About you smile, your laugh, you voice. I think about us just doing what we used to. Talk, hang around, talk some more, and in the special events, hold each other's hands. I think about you, and I can't help but smile. I can't help myself to not laugh. Because I have so many good memories with you. Yet there are other times when I think about you, and I get kind of sad. Because a lot of things have changed in such a short time. A lot of think have stopped very quickly. And that was very suddenly. I knew something's were supposed to have changed, yes, but not to this extent. Not to the extent that we sometimes don't even say goodbye to one another. Not to the extent that when I see you, I feel rather uncertain of what to do, than what I used to feel before, which I felt so happy every time I saw you. Don't get me wrong, I still feel excited when I see you, its kind of different now. I really hope that this is temporary. Because I really fear the byproduct of what this will cause. And I really do not want to experience that. I wish that I could tell you all this and so much more in person, but when can I do it? Every time that we are talking, its never enough time to exchange words other than "Hey, how are you?". You know what I mean? I also miss knowing what goes through your mind. You know how I'm always asking you what you are thinking? Because I love knowing what is going on in your mind. I like knowing you thoughts, and wondering if by any struck of luck, that you were thinking about... me. And every time that you were, you don't know how happy that makes me inside. How I then start to think about you and what I must had to do in other to have met you. How our lives where intertwined in the most oddest, unique, yet awesomest of ways. And then I think what would have happened, if we never had met. How I would have been. How you would have been. And then I thank God that He gave us the opportunity to meet each other. For I truly never in my life have met anyone like you. Anyone who is so... you. So beautiful in the outside as you are on the inside. Someone who is smart and actually knows what I'm talking about. Someone who has a different sense of humor that coincidentially matches with mine perfectly. Someone who's heart is made of solid gold. Someone who will go out of her way to help some else without a second thought. Someone who is so passionated about God and they we she talks about Him. Its quite inspiring to tell you the truth. Someone who you can't help yourself and must look at and think, "wow... she is something special". And you truly are. You have so many qualities that make you so unique, so awesome, so you. That if I had the chance to change anything about you, I wouldn't even dare to change a hair off you. For I like you just the way God made you.
This is probably a lot to take in in such a short time, and I do apologize. I just wanted to let you know how I'm feeling. And like I said before, nothing has changed in the way I feel about you. Also, I don't expect you to respond to this, or to mention this when we see each other, unless you want to. This is more so that you know what I'm thinking about. Hope that it doesn't change anything.
Well take care and God bless you.