gcicc
May 18, 2009, 02:22 PM
Hi everyone,
This is my first post on these boards and I was drawn by the fact that I am having difficulty dealing with the probable end of my relationship with my girlfriend of six years. I am hoping to get some insight from people who can show complete objectivity with respect to my situation, i.e. not my friends or family or even "ex" at this point.
Here are the facts. I am a man in my late twenties who met and dated my "ex" for the past six years. We met when I was in my post-graduate education and she was finishing college.
So there is no bias, I will begin by saying she is smart, beautiful, loyal, faithful and trustworthy. I will say that I still love her and I'm pretty certain that the feeling was mutual. In fact, it is the only serious girlfriend I have ever had and the only girl with whom I've ever been in love. I had always gotten along well with her family and I believe the feelings were reciprocated. In addition, I had gotten along with nearly all of her friends, though I admit that there are a couple that I didn't particularly like. That said, that was not a major issue with the relationship.
The major sticking point in our relationship was the conflict in our personalities; particularly, I would say, our respective outlooks on life and our future life partners. Needless to say, we have been in countless arguments throughout our relationship, some I would say borderline dangerous.
We both come from very traditional families with corresponding values, traditions, etc. However, as between us, I am the only one who actually bought into that and she clearly has a more modern outlook on relationships, women, etc. I don't want to be brandished a chauvinist (sp?) pig as I'm sure a number of you may think. In fact, I have always been supportive of her career (as we're both professionals) and hardly think that a woman's role is that of a domestic.
Our difference in outlook has sparked a number of conflicts between us as we argue about what is and what isn't acceptable behavior in the relationship. This typically entails what we do with our free time (i.e. she always wants to be out and about whereas I am the "homey" type; I want to spend more time with our families whereas she has other thoughts); her manner of dress (i.e. she's a little too provocative for my taste); her demeanor toward others (i.e. I believe she should act more like a girlfriend and less like the "party" girl). Her criticisms of me typically are that I lack romance and as stated above, I should go out with her more.
Another major sticking point is that I have asked her throughout the years to become for intimate with my family, something I have had no difficulty doing with hers. After a number of "lackluster" attempts, this simply has not occurred to the extent that I'd like considering a relationship spanning over a 1/2 decade. She also made other half-hearted efforts to try to compromise other behavior that I found problematic.
What has also been problematic is that she has let our disputes become public at times, openly making a scene in front of friends, family members and even strangers. Now, I am a great deal more private than she is and would have approached these situations differently. She is very headstrong and always wants her way and will rarely admit wrongdoing on her part.
I say the above knowing full well that I have my faults. I can be dull at times. I realize that I have a traditional view of relationships that not everyone ascribes to. I also realize that I can be stubborn, jealous, judgmental, non-romantic, etc. basically the traits women can detest in a man.
However, what I have always tried to do is hold her in the highest light and be true to her. This is the woman I believed I would marry and have children with and it appears this will not be the case, to my dismay.
Her great qualities aside, I have been unhappy in this relationship for a long period. In fact, we are the type that have had the short break-ups, i.e. less than a week, on a few occasions and this was our last go-around, before we decided to call it quits. In fact, the relationship had become so strained that I did not want any intimate relations with my beautiful girlfiend as of late.
Essentially, I came to the point in my life and in my relationship where it was time to take the next step, i.e. engagement. Before so doing, I consulted with others who are both happily and un-happily married and there seemed to be one common theme: don't marry her if you have any major doubts. Well, I have a number of doubts and that is what prompted the break-up, when she was expecting a ring, marriage and children.
My doubts aside, I can't help but to feel that she is the one for me. In other words, it is hard to picture myself with anyone else.
I apologize for this lengthy post, but her and I have been through a great deal and I thought I would be as through as possible. Would anyone be kind enough to post their thoughts? Am I right or should I stay with her because we love each other? LOL, am I a naïve old-fashioned guy that will never find the girl for me?
This is my first post on these boards and I was drawn by the fact that I am having difficulty dealing with the probable end of my relationship with my girlfriend of six years. I am hoping to get some insight from people who can show complete objectivity with respect to my situation, i.e. not my friends or family or even "ex" at this point.
Here are the facts. I am a man in my late twenties who met and dated my "ex" for the past six years. We met when I was in my post-graduate education and she was finishing college.
So there is no bias, I will begin by saying she is smart, beautiful, loyal, faithful and trustworthy. I will say that I still love her and I'm pretty certain that the feeling was mutual. In fact, it is the only serious girlfriend I have ever had and the only girl with whom I've ever been in love. I had always gotten along well with her family and I believe the feelings were reciprocated. In addition, I had gotten along with nearly all of her friends, though I admit that there are a couple that I didn't particularly like. That said, that was not a major issue with the relationship.
The major sticking point in our relationship was the conflict in our personalities; particularly, I would say, our respective outlooks on life and our future life partners. Needless to say, we have been in countless arguments throughout our relationship, some I would say borderline dangerous.
We both come from very traditional families with corresponding values, traditions, etc. However, as between us, I am the only one who actually bought into that and she clearly has a more modern outlook on relationships, women, etc. I don't want to be brandished a chauvinist (sp?) pig as I'm sure a number of you may think. In fact, I have always been supportive of her career (as we're both professionals) and hardly think that a woman's role is that of a domestic.
Our difference in outlook has sparked a number of conflicts between us as we argue about what is and what isn't acceptable behavior in the relationship. This typically entails what we do with our free time (i.e. she always wants to be out and about whereas I am the "homey" type; I want to spend more time with our families whereas she has other thoughts); her manner of dress (i.e. she's a little too provocative for my taste); her demeanor toward others (i.e. I believe she should act more like a girlfriend and less like the "party" girl). Her criticisms of me typically are that I lack romance and as stated above, I should go out with her more.
Another major sticking point is that I have asked her throughout the years to become for intimate with my family, something I have had no difficulty doing with hers. After a number of "lackluster" attempts, this simply has not occurred to the extent that I'd like considering a relationship spanning over a 1/2 decade. She also made other half-hearted efforts to try to compromise other behavior that I found problematic.
What has also been problematic is that she has let our disputes become public at times, openly making a scene in front of friends, family members and even strangers. Now, I am a great deal more private than she is and would have approached these situations differently. She is very headstrong and always wants her way and will rarely admit wrongdoing on her part.
I say the above knowing full well that I have my faults. I can be dull at times. I realize that I have a traditional view of relationships that not everyone ascribes to. I also realize that I can be stubborn, jealous, judgmental, non-romantic, etc. basically the traits women can detest in a man.
However, what I have always tried to do is hold her in the highest light and be true to her. This is the woman I believed I would marry and have children with and it appears this will not be the case, to my dismay.
Her great qualities aside, I have been unhappy in this relationship for a long period. In fact, we are the type that have had the short break-ups, i.e. less than a week, on a few occasions and this was our last go-around, before we decided to call it quits. In fact, the relationship had become so strained that I did not want any intimate relations with my beautiful girlfiend as of late.
Essentially, I came to the point in my life and in my relationship where it was time to take the next step, i.e. engagement. Before so doing, I consulted with others who are both happily and un-happily married and there seemed to be one common theme: don't marry her if you have any major doubts. Well, I have a number of doubts and that is what prompted the break-up, when she was expecting a ring, marriage and children.
My doubts aside, I can't help but to feel that she is the one for me. In other words, it is hard to picture myself with anyone else.
I apologize for this lengthy post, but her and I have been through a great deal and I thought I would be as through as possible. Would anyone be kind enough to post their thoughts? Am I right or should I stay with her because we love each other? LOL, am I a naïve old-fashioned guy that will never find the girl for me?