I dated the love of my life for over 5 years now and now she wants nothing to do with me. We did argue a lot for the past 3 years but I guess I never envisioned her beign done with me like this. I love her, and this hurts so bad that I feel worthless. It started as the " I think we need time apart". I did not agree with it but she told me we would still talk on the phone just not see each other for a while. I regrettably agreed. I kept making excuses to see her. She was always upset because of this. I then found a condom wrapper and the UNUSED notice I said unused condom on her dresser just out in the open. She lied and said she tore it open on accident last night trying to get something out of her drawer. I didn't believe her. I asked her to be honest with me the next day, told her that her answer would not change things between us in the least. If she did have sex with someone there is nothing I can do about it. We were separated. So there. She sighed and finally said "fine but dont u say anything or laugh" I agreed. "Last nite I was drunk bymyself and decided it would be funny to try to put a rubber on a banana. Thats why the rubber was still rolled up and not used. I am not sleeping with anyone. you just always assume that I am."
The sad thing is I want to believe her, but the way she acts towards me now, I don't know. She is not the EZ type, but I really don't know. She blames all the relationship problems on me I feel. I have apologized tons of times, tried to change little things but nothing is working. Now she won't answer my calls from my cell number but when I call from a blocked number she will answer. Someone please help me. This has me depressed and hating myself, I loved her so much. Why do women do nice guys this way. It sucks. I need to talk to someone. I know this sounds like a loser, trust me I feel like one right now. She even told me at one time I wasn't a real man. I paid most of her bills, took care of her. We had a great sex life. Its all over now. What's the point.
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Sounds like your first serious relationship. The problem with first serious relationships is that you might not know the signs of when to call it quits. So you keep hanging on and dragging it out longer than it should have been.

You said you've been fighting for the last 3 years? That's not a healthy relationship at all. CHances are you should have already been broken up somewhere between those 3 years of fighting.

It's time to let her go and move on with your life. You're just putting yourself through so much pain and suffering. I know you might feel like she's the "one". Almost everyone feels that way in their first serious relationship.

To help you with the healing, you have to block her out of her life completely. You can't keep talking to her cause it will just keep torturing you. You need to block her out of your life, so that you can heal from this breakup.

Hard as it is to believe, this thing is over, and you must heal, and rebuild a life that you enjoy without her.

Click on the stickies link in my signature, and get some good tips on how to cope with a break up.

It starts with disappearing from her life and cutting all contact with her so you can heal.