tobefree
Sep 28, 2006, 03:12 AM
hey everyone,
two months before I went into the korean army, I met the girl of my life...
I'm 25 yrs old, and I never pursued a girl ever before, but the first time I spent time with her, I told her I was going to marry her... it all started like a movie and pursued her like crasy and she recriprocated. She, herself has never had a boyfriend, and even though she had her doubts and knew I was heading into the army, we eventually fell in love... and she said she would wait for the two years service, I don't know if you all know, but the korean army is unlike the U.S, and once your in you only have set amount of vacation days(around five times, each one being a week or so, so it's like prison...
future plans, the whole bit. It was like a dream come true
well, then I went into the army with high hopes and she parted with me both of us having a vision that we would become more awesome for each other
boot camp was amazing, letters were sent back and forth, but once I got dispatched, the place was a jail cell and I got really insecure... my superiors kept telling she would break up with me 'cause that's what happened to all of them... well, my first vacation in 100 days was awesome, seeing her and catching up, but the army began to change me, and, even though my love for her kept growing, I found myself becoming more insecure... the next vacation, after several months, I found myeslf acting distant to her because I thought she didn't love me as much as I loved her... which is totally untrue... I said some mean things... when I came back in I realized how wrong I was and began to say sorry and tell her why I had acted in that way... well basically I became so messed up and so dependent on her, she broke up with me, wanted me to stay friends, but I couldn't, and now if I call she'll just say it's over, doesn't matter, and hang up... basically I can't get over the fact that this break up happened because I made a situation out of nothing... she was trusting in me, always showing her love, but I became weird in the army... how do I forget that from my past..? She was the perfect girl and I still love her... and I messed it up... I need to forget... and be independent
want to say thanks for the people in advance who read my lengthy story=)
two months before I went into the korean army, I met the girl of my life...
I'm 25 yrs old, and I never pursued a girl ever before, but the first time I spent time with her, I told her I was going to marry her... it all started like a movie and pursued her like crasy and she recriprocated. She, herself has never had a boyfriend, and even though she had her doubts and knew I was heading into the army, we eventually fell in love... and she said she would wait for the two years service, I don't know if you all know, but the korean army is unlike the U.S, and once your in you only have set amount of vacation days(around five times, each one being a week or so, so it's like prison...
future plans, the whole bit. It was like a dream come true
well, then I went into the army with high hopes and she parted with me both of us having a vision that we would become more awesome for each other
boot camp was amazing, letters were sent back and forth, but once I got dispatched, the place was a jail cell and I got really insecure... my superiors kept telling she would break up with me 'cause that's what happened to all of them... well, my first vacation in 100 days was awesome, seeing her and catching up, but the army began to change me, and, even though my love for her kept growing, I found myself becoming more insecure... the next vacation, after several months, I found myeslf acting distant to her because I thought she didn't love me as much as I loved her... which is totally untrue... I said some mean things... when I came back in I realized how wrong I was and began to say sorry and tell her why I had acted in that way... well basically I became so messed up and so dependent on her, she broke up with me, wanted me to stay friends, but I couldn't, and now if I call she'll just say it's over, doesn't matter, and hang up... basically I can't get over the fact that this break up happened because I made a situation out of nothing... she was trusting in me, always showing her love, but I became weird in the army... how do I forget that from my past..? She was the perfect girl and I still love her... and I messed it up... I need to forget... and be independent
want to say thanks for the people in advance who read my lengthy story=)