lindey_calvaro
May 8, 2009, 01:27 PM
I know I have a problem, and I just want to stop. But it's so much harder than that.
I started being bulimic in 8th grade because I knew it was a way to lose added weight. I was already starving myself (allowing no more than 500 calories a day with a rigorous exercise routine), and I just got downright scary looking. It was so hard to kick the habit but I finally did.
Right after I kicked one habit, I picked up another, cutting. Sometimes I would cry myself to sleep and the happy feeling cutting gave me was such a relief. I stopped after my boyfriend had a conniption when he found out.
Now that I'm older, I'm worried that I have a tendency to get into more serious things. Weed and alcohol have the same effects all those other things did for me growing up. I've been staying away from them for awhile, but I'm miserable. I get chest pains. I just want it all to stop because I'm afraid of where this might end up.
I started being bulimic in 8th grade because I knew it was a way to lose added weight. I was already starving myself (allowing no more than 500 calories a day with a rigorous exercise routine), and I just got downright scary looking. It was so hard to kick the habit but I finally did.
Right after I kicked one habit, I picked up another, cutting. Sometimes I would cry myself to sleep and the happy feeling cutting gave me was such a relief. I stopped after my boyfriend had a conniption when he found out.
Now that I'm older, I'm worried that I have a tendency to get into more serious things. Weed and alcohol have the same effects all those other things did for me growing up. I've been staying away from them for awhile, but I'm miserable. I get chest pains. I just want it all to stop because I'm afraid of where this might end up.