Well I don't know if anyone will read this nor care but it. I hate life. I hate myself. I'm so lonely. I have no friends. I'm failing college (1.4 gpa) and I'm only a freshmen. I hate all my classes and don't learn a thing. I don't go out. I'm not in any clubs. I ride my bike alone for fun, but its hardly ever fun. I workout and want to be in shape but it doesn't seem to matter (im 5'9" / 160 lbs/19 yo)i know I look like . No girls have ever shown any interest in me at all. Whatsoever. I have no one to talk to. I'm just so lonely. I try to talk to people and get to know them but they just respond with 1 or two word answers and the conversations never go anywhere. I hated high school. Never had any real friends there either. No one ever likes me and am never anything more then an acquaintance.everyone else in my family is successful and smart which is pretty much the opposite of me. I'm so stupid I'm probably borderline retarded. 2 girls who have attended the same school as me since elementary school happened to come to the same college and live on the same floor, and when I said hi passing them in the hall just looked at me and kept walking. I'm pretty much a failure and useless being with no point in life. I would compare myself to a dandelion in total significance. I don't understand. Why is my family life so good but my life so ty. I couldn't have asked for better or more caring family/parents. Why am I in a world of . I have nothing to look forward to ever during my week. I hate myself. I feel like I'm in the background of a scene in a movie, but not even in the credits, where the movie is life. I have no interests. I never have. I don't know what I want to do for a career but it seems like it doesn't matter in the long run. I'm probably going to throw all my chances of success out the window because I'm too stupid to realize the chance. My life. Why does everyone else have it so much easier?? I'm so worthless. Goodbye

Nobody likes you? Wrong. I like you because I could have written that very same thing. So, you totally understand where I'm coming from. I don't feel that way so much anymore though. It gets better. Age is good for something.

It sounds like you are depressed. Have you talked the situation over with your mom or dad? Telling us how you feel is good too. Here, you are heard and acknowleged.

Glad to hear your family is good to you.

Hang in there man , stick by your family and think about how happy you make them.

It sounds like you get no joy out of living, and that is very sad considering your age.

That this has been a chronic, ongoing problem for more than a few years as you said, may I ask what you (or your family) have done to address this.

Have you ever been in counselling? Had a physical, or psychiatric assessment? How do your parents react to your sadness, or have you managed to hide it from them and the rest of your family, all these years.

I can't imagine as a parent not noticing that something was wrong, if the pattern has continued since high school.

While counselling may help, if you are clinically diagnosed with depression for example, there are very effective medications to help. Both might be necessary but you won't know until you seek help.

Not to address this is to keep living the way you are. I hope that you will take steps to help yourself. You have nothing to lose, and everything to gain.