I plugged in a computer tonight that hasn't been used in 6 years. The photos were from an era when my marriage was happy, my family of four was perfect... only I didn't know it. It is like a sword stabbing me looking at these photos yet I can't stop... I still love him. He worshipped me and I was so horrible to him. What was I thinking. I would do anything to turn back the clock; for my 2 children, for my family, for me. Will I ever find happiness after this or am I destined for regret?:(:confused:

I have learned that EVERYTHING happens for a reason. Sometimes it's easy too look back and see what you could have done differently, but unfortunately it's impossible to go back in time. You will find happiness if you let it find you. Just remember these are lessons learned and the next time something great comes your way don't let it pass you by.

You're put through tests in your life, if you fail the test, don't worry, it only means your better prepared for the next one.

Don't be so hard on yourself, what is meant to be will always find a way.

I hope this doesn't seem like the "sterotypical mushy response"... because it come from my heart and personal experience. I hope I could help.

I agree with TexasGal that everything happens for a reason.

There is a reason why you are looking at these photos now. You are understanding that you could have done things differently, that he loved you, that your actions resulted in an outcome you're now unhappy with.

It is called regret, but it's also called maturity. Knowing that you did the wrong thing means that you can begin the process of healing. You don't have to live in regret - that's your choice. Yes, you may have made some mistakes - even bad ones - but it's not the end of the world.

Don't live in the past - it is the past and you can't change it. Learn your lessons and move on. You can't change the past, but you can shape your future.