Cait1234
Apr 6, 2009, 11:16 AM
I need some serious help! I have been dating my boyfriend for two years. I couldn't be more in love and more happier than I am when I'm with him. And I seriously want to marry him. But I have then biggest problem that is driving us apart and it's breaking my heart. I just can't seem to stop.
I am way way over jealous. I get mad over the supidest, smallest things. I'm a bit paranoid and probably have a low self-esteem no matter how often he tells me I'm beautiful. If I was a good person I would probably break-up with him myself to get him away from me. But I love him too much and I think he loves me too much and that's the only reason he hasn't broken up with me yet.
I say I trust him, but they way I act it seems like I don't. I feel that if I keep saying and doing things that he will do something to hurt me, but only because I pushed him to do it. I deserve it anyways.
I know that it's wrong and that it's stupid but I can't stop for some reason. I have a serious serious problem and I really need help. I need help to get over my jealousy.
I am way way over jealous. I get mad over the supidest, smallest things. I'm a bit paranoid and probably have a low self-esteem no matter how often he tells me I'm beautiful. If I was a good person I would probably break-up with him myself to get him away from me. But I love him too much and I think he loves me too much and that's the only reason he hasn't broken up with me yet.
I say I trust him, but they way I act it seems like I don't. I feel that if I keep saying and doing things that he will do something to hurt me, but only because I pushed him to do it. I deserve it anyways.
I know that it's wrong and that it's stupid but I can't stop for some reason. I have a serious serious problem and I really need help. I need help to get over my jealousy.