PrincessChu-chi1312
Mar 29, 2009, 01:18 PM
I promise everyone who reads this message I will die if I can't get someone to talk to me!
I hate my life so much anymore! I can't love a can't feel I can't speak I can't breath I feel like I lost everything! And anymore its like if I get hurt I can't feel anything anymore!I just feel like takeing my life so this pain can end but I can't I just cant! I think I should tell you the story so you can understand more! It all started when I met the man I wanted to love for the rest of my life. Everyday we talked and he would say he loves me and I would say it back. But in a few months later he cheated on my and I went nuts I broke everything in my house I destroyed everything sooner or later my parents sent me away to get help I came back a month later and he came back in my life cause I can't let him go. I love him so much . To where I can't let him go. But after we got together again he left me cause he said I started all this drama in his life.but everyone I knew my friends and my family say other wise that he did it all. But I took the blame cause I loved him. And I just can't let him go and yet again he came back. And after awhile he was sent way to a mental home and a week later he came back. He was in there cause he was trying to commit suicide over me. When he came back all I wanted to do was hold him and be with him and when I saw him. Everything fell apart. My heart shattered and my life felt pointless. I just wanted to die when he told me he was leaving me for another girl. I thought I could let go I thought I could finally move on but I can't I just don't know how I can picture my life without him in it and its not fair of how he can sit here and blame everything on me again and say its my fault and not even give me and answer telling me why he left. Please someone I need help I don't know what I should do I can't move on and I can't let him go please someone help me.:(
I hate my life so much anymore! I can't love a can't feel I can't speak I can't breath I feel like I lost everything! And anymore its like if I get hurt I can't feel anything anymore!I just feel like takeing my life so this pain can end but I can't I just cant! I think I should tell you the story so you can understand more! It all started when I met the man I wanted to love for the rest of my life. Everyday we talked and he would say he loves me and I would say it back. But in a few months later he cheated on my and I went nuts I broke everything in my house I destroyed everything sooner or later my parents sent me away to get help I came back a month later and he came back in my life cause I can't let him go. I love him so much . To where I can't let him go. But after we got together again he left me cause he said I started all this drama in his life.but everyone I knew my friends and my family say other wise that he did it all. But I took the blame cause I loved him. And I just can't let him go and yet again he came back. And after awhile he was sent way to a mental home and a week later he came back. He was in there cause he was trying to commit suicide over me. When he came back all I wanted to do was hold him and be with him and when I saw him. Everything fell apart. My heart shattered and my life felt pointless. I just wanted to die when he told me he was leaving me for another girl. I thought I could let go I thought I could finally move on but I can't I just don't know how I can picture my life without him in it and its not fair of how he can sit here and blame everything on me again and say its my fault and not even give me and answer telling me why he left. Please someone I need help I don't know what I should do I can't move on and I can't let him go please someone help me.:(