Hi, erm I've never really used a site like this so bare with me!

Erm well I guess I can't really ask for help without telling yous about the background story. So here goes. My boyfriend and I have been friends since we were younger due to a family friendship. We were never particularly close but as we got older things changed. Last year we started "seeing" each other which was all good but some of my friends had warned me against him as I was only 17 and he was almost 20. That didn't bother me because I knew him but then people started to tel me that he was only using me and wasn't that interested (although we never slept together). I started blowing him off a lot but he would always come back so I then realised that that wasn't true. At the time I was busy studying for my prelims so didn't always get to see him. But one day I was out for lunch with my sister and friends when I spotted him in a restaurant with another girl. Quite clearly on a date. I had to physically stop my sister from going in and killing him! She had always warned me against him but I had never listened. Anyway we never spoke again after that, he never tried to contact me and either did I. He avoided me work place and I his. If we did bump into each other he acted like nothing had happened and were still good friends.
Im a very down to earth person and not one to hold a grudge. So a few months later we started talking again and eventually started going out. Now I must stress that I am not the innocent party either as at the time I was also seeing other people but I never ever went on a date with them. Anyway we started going out 9months ago and its been great until recently. We decided that I should start on the pill. Everything wsa fine and dandy until then but now I have awful mood swings and keep taking them out on him. We had a major fall out one night because I just unleashed every little thing that annoyed me at him. We were out in a club and it ended up with me storming off and him not realising I was gone for about an hour. By the time he realised I was almost home. Anyway he dumped me the next day at 5pm for treating him like that and then at 7pm told me he had only done that to teach me a lesson never to do it again. I love him but was very angry at this. He promised to never ever do it again and if he's angry to just not talk until he's cooled down.
Anyway we were fine after that for a while but lately I've been moaning at him for anything and everything and the othernight the same thing happend; we argued when we were out. It was a great night up until that part. What he didn't know was that he had hit upon a nerve, (my best friend and I had split up so to speak after 8yrs). He didn't know because we haven't been on the best of terms because of the moaning so I hadn't told him. We made up on the way home in the sense that we're talking but not a lot. Im away at uni all week and only back on a Thursday night and he's always working till 10:30pm so we have limited time. But now that I'm back he doesn't want to see me cause he says he's still angry which is totally understandable. I've tried to apologise but he won't listen and says everythings OK but he's still angry. After the incident he started texting a girl that fancies him and when she asked if we were still together he said "yeah, sorta". He doesn't know that I know this. Hes told me he would never ever cheat or do anything to hurt me and I do believe him but right now I don't know what to do. This is our last weekend together as he's joining the police and will be working all of the time. I want to do something fun and we had planned to but he says he doesn't want to fall out with me but he doesn't want to see me right now either. I can accept that but I miss him. I love him so much but I don't know what to do. We've spoke about the future together and we know we're both made for each other but if I can't control my moaning I know he'll leave. I'v now came off the pill until I can make an appointment with my doctor to talk about its effects. Im not saying its totally the pill's fault but it has played a prominent role. I am not a moany or jealous person. Im an upbeat, positive one! But I don't know how to show him how much I'm adament I'll change because when I told him he told me he didn't believe me. He said he justs needs time to calm down and still loves me and doesn't want this to break us up but I'm scared that like the previous times this could end it! Because we have history i.e known each other like our whole lifes we feel as though we'v been together for a lot longer. In a good way though! So when we talk about the future its easy to see.

I would be greatfull for any help at all and I do apologise about the novel!

Give him space, he needs it. Please do whatever you have to, to gain some self control over your moods, feelings, anger, and frankly weird behavior.

Have a doctor check your hormones, or something that guides you to be a lot calmer.

Obviously your pushing him away with your behavior.

More often than not, many experts believe the mood changes associated with oral contraceptives have to do with the progestin component rather than the estrogen. All combination oral contraceptives contain ethinyl estradiol as the estrogen, although the dose may vary from brand to brand. The progestin component is different.
Changing pills may allow you all the benefits without the mood changes. It may take a couple of tries to find the pill that works best for you. Usually, a particular pill is tried for three months before making any changes. Good communication between you and your doctor is necessary.



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