I'm 21 and my husband is 27 he is 6 years older then me we met when I was 15 and got married when I was 17 at age 18 I got pregnant and had two kids back to back.. . I don't even know where to begin after having my last child I was out of work because during my pregnancy my job place was being sold over to new management so I wasn't able to get work 1: because this was my first job ever ( I stayed for 4 years) so I lacked experinence with anything else 2: I had two babies to take care of so I couldn't go to work and we couldn't afford day care (even to this day) so my kidsare now almost 2 and 3 (in october) and I can't get a job brcause the economy is so bad that when I do go for interviews they basically laugh at me because out of 30 people being interviewed I rank bottom of the list because of no experince in anything other then making subs ( I worked at subway) so I decided to go to school so I can become independent again to take care of my children and to get away from him and I have been going to school full time for two semesters now. I can't take it anymore I have been verbally abused and physically abused he has given me a black eye before because I wouldn't accept money from my sister ( I didn't take it because it was drug money)he punched me while I was holding my son. I try to get away and I don't care for him I even told him that but he won't let me go . I even stoop so low as to cheat on him so he would want to leave me... that was the most stupidest decisions I ever made. I cheated with my best friend because I didn't want to do it with just some random guy I trusted my friend and loved him as a person he was my best friend but the problem was he was a guy and he liked me but I didn't like him like that we just talked all the time we were eachothers conselors he was my only friend a true friend a respectful friend and now I lost him because my husband forgave me or so he says and now I have no one "im not allowed contact with him anymore" he constantly calls me a whore and rubs it in my face( he got drunk and high one time and a girl sucked his before and he told me right away but I don't rub that in his face) I wants me to be his slave he has a suspended license and I have to drive him every where he has been in and out of jail for habitual driver under supension he has two felonies and waste money on gold jewlery for himself he's taking all of the tax return money and I have to use my left over grant money from school to buy nessecites I just want out no family member can help me they have no jobs as well and can't provide shelter I just want to die I'm only holding on for my kids. I need a way out

There are shelters for abused women with children. They can and will provide you with a safe place to stay, counseling and employment opportunities. Find one and get out now!

Gather up yours and the children's birth certificates, social security cards and any other important papers, pack a bag of necessities and call the local women's shelter. Take copies of any police reports you have with you. It will be hard to be at the shelter but you say you want a better life for your children so it will be worth it in the end. Even if school has to be put on the back burner for the time being, you can always go back later. Get out of this situation before your children see this as the norm. All of you deserve better than this.