missnilla
Feb 9, 2009, 06:05 PM
I don't know if I'm going through post partum depression but here it goes, I just had a baby 4 months ago, regaurly I'm pretty self conscious but not this bad, currently my boyfriend is not living with me but living in Florida trying to pursue his career in the music industry. But I always seem to have to ask him if he is seeing someone else, funny thing I could never imagine him do it, but I ask him anyway, I make him hurt really bad, he tells me his chest stomahe and head start to ache and every time I ask him these questions he gets tottaly axhausted and I need to to do something to fix my problems and I don't know what to do I always seem so be upset, I love him beyond what words can say, and I always seem to overreact I like call people and ask them questions, and I know he is going to blow up one day so I need help, I need to get over this and I don't know how, no matter how many times I say he loves me I still feel different but when I ask him and he says no I always seem to be relived but I don't know. I'm in such a weird position and all I want to do is be with him but there are too many things holding me back from going back out to florida( he and I lived out there for three months and I couldn't find a job) right now I work 4 overnight a week and I'm aways exhausted after wards, now my man was always my sense of excape from the world and I was his too, but now its like he is questioning us because of me. I don't want to be like this and I don't mean to be like this, but I don't know what to do I'm so emotional and I can't help the tears at all anymore. I Don't WANT TO BE LIKE THIS ANYMORE, can any one help me to fix my ways?
I really don't want to hurt him this guy really loves me!
I really don't want to hurt him this guy really loves me!