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Aunt_trisha
Jan 9, 2009, 11:41 AM
I have a big family. My parents are still together and they raised 5 children including me. I am the middle child. I have an older sister, older brother, younger sister, younger brother. Were all teenagers and my older siblings have children and there 21 and 19. Im 18 and I feel like I worthless. I can't find a job that I enjoy doing. I want to go to beauty school but stupid me went through a rebel stage in High school and dropped out. So I'm in the middle of taking my GED. I don't want this to be long but I have to explain something's before I go on so you can understand why I feel like this.

I am a wrestler. Been wrestling for 13 years. Yes I'm a girl, and I loved wrestling. Traveled the world, a lot of scolarships. So was my older sister, she missed the olympics because she got pregnant. My dad was my wrestling coach and when he found out about her he quit as well and I was stuck all by myself. I hated my dad for that. So I quit. Now 2 years later every time we get into a fight he brings up how I failed in life, and I understand I have been failing but he rubs it in my face like its nothing.

My boyfriend tried to get me back into wrestling but I don't have the heart for it anymore. I would love to coach but not wrestle anymore. And everyone gets really mad because I don't want to anymore.

I lived in an apartment with my boyfriend and we had roomates. They left us high and dry and left us. We weren't left with anything else so we had to move back into my parents house. Ever since we have I have not been happy. My dad tells me he thinks I'm on drugs and that I need help because I'm 18 and has failed everything. He tells me I'm worthless and a waste of space.. how am I suppose to take that? I feel like the lowest person ever.The only time I like my dad is when he's drinking. He's funny than. But I feel like he wants to argue with me, I won't say anything and he will get into it with me for no reason.

So am I being ungrateful?
I don't know what to do anymore. I really want to get a job that I like. What do I do so he doesn't tell me that he's disgusted in me anymore...

Thank you.:(

StaticFX
Jan 9, 2009, 12:00 PM
OMG NO!! It sounds to me like your parents have issues. NOT YOU. You are only 18 and already have the feeling weighing on you!? Oh dear. My advice... get that GED first and foremost.
Get OUT of your parents house. Can't the boyfriend work? If you both get a job you should be able to get an apt. They, take some time to REALLY thin about what you want to do. You want to coach? Great! You have the experience in the sport! Go to your local community college and inquire about what it might take to be able to do that... then... do it!

Mean time. I would not look back... don't talk to your parents for a while. Hopefully THEY will grow up. Wow... to make a child feel like that. That's just sad. I could NEVER.. EVER say things like that to my child. Maybe in time, once you stop speaking to them, they will come around. But Don't let them do that to you. If they say something.. throw it right back.. ask them "WHAT is wrong with them!? I will NEVER say things like to MY child" etc.

KEEP YOUR HEAD UP! Someday you'll make a great coach.. kids will look up to you as their role model... then you can stick that in your dads... [Fill in the blank] lol

Just get out of the bad environment.

Aunt_trisha
Jan 9, 2009, 12:08 PM
You want to coach? Great! you have the experience in the sport! go to your local community college and inquire about what it might take to be able to do that... then... do it!
.

The only thing about that is I don't have a liscens. They won't let me get it. I also don't have a car. Ive asked them so many times to bring me but they say I'm not ready yet. I feel like I can't do anything..

StaticFX
Jan 9, 2009, 12:10 PM
All in time, you are 18! Take your time. Why can't you have a license? Who says you cant? (teaching license? Car ?)

Aunt_trisha
Jan 9, 2009, 12:13 PM
all in time, you are 18!! take your time. Why can't you have a license? who says you cant? (teaching license? car ?)

I don't have my drivers liscens. They said I'm not ready to take it put personaly I think I am. I don't have anyone else to take me there. My boyfriend works Monday through Friday from 9 to 6.

StaticFX
Jan 9, 2009, 12:49 PM
You are 18. You are an adult. Go get it.

Starbucks21
Jan 9, 2009, 11:49 PM
You are 18 years old. You can do anything you put your mind to.

I have my ged and I'm proud of it. I have won academic contest and I stunk at high school. The ged can be easy if you don't panic about it.

Getting your drivers license is a big thing but it's not impossible. Maybe a few friends can help you learn how.

MarkwithaK
Jan 10, 2009, 12:19 AM
You're old man calling you worthless and a failure is way out of line, but that doesn't mean that you are blameless in this situation. You are 18, it is time to take the steps needed to get your life in order. Don't just talk about it. Actually go out and do it! You will find that the more you accomplish the better you will feel about yourself. Eventually either your dad will lay off the negativity or you will be at a point where you don't care what him or anyone else thinks.

Fr_Chuck
Jan 10, 2009, 07:26 AM
Ok, you can't get a job you like because you are 18, have no high school and the economy is bad.

So at 18 you fix it, you get a GED, then you go to school for what you want.