Ever since I was 6th grade, I've have a problem I abhor. I always think of others before me. Like, lets say that I am going to a birthday party, I know that most kids will be excited about what their going to do, not me. I worry about what they are going to think of me, try not to be embarrassed and things like that. For instance, last year it took me a whole 6th grade to get use and comfortable with my classmates, I always think before I talk and because of that, never get to express my opinion all the way. I feel like everybody is watching me, laughing behind my back, and making fun of me.

I know that's not true. But I feel that way, even with my relatives. My cousin just came from New york to visit us. Usually I am always outgoing and talkative, but ever since he came, I became quiet and nervous. I want to act normal, but cant! I just HAS to think before I talk and think of how I will look like in the other person's eyes... I get mad at myself. I always tell myself "Why don't you just drop it? Just talk and act normal!!!" I guess it doesn't work that way because it's futile...

I've had enough! I need help, please help.

You sound like you have a problem with self confidence.
Work on that and realize you are just as good as anybody else.
Then when you think those thoughts start thinking instead about what you think others think... looking forward to the party, etc...

Gaining Self Confidence In 3 Easy Steps (http://ezinearticles.com/?Gaining-Self-Confidence-In-3-Easy-Steps&id=688873)

Gaining Self-Confidence: Tips You Need to Know (http://www.buzzle.com/articles/gaining-self-confidence-tips-you-need-to-know.html)

I'm the same way and I still get nervous and I've been working on it for years!

You seem like a great kid, just work on trying not to think about it so much and be yourself! Everyone gets nervous around new people.

In my opinion you sound more like a person who cares too much about what others think about you! Like you have to do the right thing, wear the right thing and say the right thing!

TO ME it is less of a self confidence thing then a self-epiphanation that everyone is different and needs not to be forced to act different then who they are.

Be yourself, say what YOU want, wear what YOU want and act like YOU want.

(all this in clean spirit of course I'm not saying swear all the time if you want to swear!)

Exactly be yourself above all else. Learn to be comfortable with you. I use to be like this too, one day I realized why do I care what people think so much. Then I just started being me.
Sure sometimes you can embarrass yourself but who doesn't say or do something embarrassing in their life time.

Thank you guys =)


I agree: I'm my worst enemy.