I use to be a play boy ,having a lot of girlfrinedz at the same time.. the maximum girlz I had were 12 at the same time and so on and so forth but they come and go.. I would make them fall in love with me and then leave them.. in my past I broke up with my first girl friend which I really loved so every time I would break a girl heart I felt that pain... I don't know with all these girlz who I was in love and who I was not they were from all over the world.. I did that for about 7 years cheated on all of them... all those girlz were in love with me.and I were in love with few girlz at the same time.or I thought I was in love.. had two broken marriage since then.. now I'm married again... and I really love this girl.. I want it to work.. im made of stone now.. I feel like my feelings are dead.. I have sinned so much that don't know what to do... I regrett of what I had done in my past and ashamed of myself...

I'll start with saying, you should be ashamed of yourself, as you said. This is what happens when you put your own selfish needs in front of anothers. Karma has a way of coming around when you live your life like that.

You need to get into counseling, and figure out why you were so willing to play with a woman's feelings, and then go on to do it over and over again, even though you knew you were hurting them. It sounds to me like you don't really love yourself, and that in itself would make it hard for you to love someone else! That is why you feel like a cold shell!

You need to talk to someone to figure out what is behind the reasons for why you did this first. Don't let your wife be your next "victim," if she isn't already. Don't make her pay for your insecurities and mistakes. Get help so you don't leave more women with a bunch of baggage strewn all over the road of their lives.

How can I delete my question

You shouldn't delete your question... makes no difference because you can't as far as I no... but deleting it won't change what's gone on.

You have to deal with it, or you'll lose yet another woman and be left feeling worse.

how can i delete my question

Why are you trying to delete it? Did you ever get counselling as suggested? Or are you now trying to hide your tracks?

12 girls at one time, please nobody has time for 12 people at one time. I think someone is over-exaggerating.

Well you are right I don't want to think of my past that is why I asked how to delete this question.As far as the counseling goes I think I know why I did that.. I was abused as a kid.. so I just took it out on everyone I guess.I can't remember my past even though I think hard I remember a little bit.. and yes it is true I had a lot of girls even more then 12 at a time and they were all suffering because of me.. im married noe since 5 months and I'm happy now and I thank God that he had shown me to the right women and if I get my time back I will be a different man.. I had lost my very first love because of my mistakes and every time I would hurt some one I would get hurt caz I use to punish me for doing every thing rong.. I was abusing myself and those women's.. I can't even say sorry to them few of them have forgiven me and the rest aren't but still I wish I hadn't done that... I swear:mad:

Karma has a way of getting us when we do bad things.and 12 women at the same time?I think you are over exaggerating the situation.you really need to get help before you hurt the wrong girl and she puts a curse on you for playing with her emotions.playing with someon's heart is not a small thing.