I feel that my boyfriend will break up with me in next summer. I feel although we express strong love through text message or the phone call, when we see each other personally, we don't really have common topic or the strong feeling of love. I don't know whether it is good or bad of our long distance relationship, because I sometimes feel that if we see each other every day, we will break up sooner. I am afraid if I tell him all that I feel, he would end our relationship.
I always cried alone after I spent time with him, because things didn't happen as I expected. But he texted me every time after we spent time together that he had fun hanging out with me. But it was not really fun. I made the atmosphere uncomfortable all the time. I don't know why I still feel I love him. If I lose him now, I don't have any happy reason to be alive.
After winter passes, I have a feeling that he will leave me because we are not happy even when he comes a long way to see me. He tells me he loves me very much, but why I don't feel it. I don't feel he is happy and comfortable with me.
I wish I could die before he breaks up with me.

Why not just ask him how HE feels? Ask him what he expects and anticipates from a good relationship.
Why make it sound like you are uneasy unless you really want to break up. Don't make it an 'How I feel thing' but a 'how do you feel about us' and then take it from there.

Why do you feel this is inevitable?

What is projecting the possible outcome going to accomplish,except to make it happen?

The more you concentrate on the 'I am going to lose him' thoughts,that's exactly what you will try to accomplish.It's training your mind to do what you are feeling.

Where are the insecurities coming from?

First of all in any relationship you need to have trust honesty communication and everything else that comes with a relationship. Obvisiouly you don't trust him and you don't have faiith in him because if you did you wouldn't have doubts in your head about these things and they will eat you up alieve. And if you talk to him it might push him away from you so you have to deal with it on your own and trust him and have faith in him.

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Because things didn't happen as I expected.


See a doctor, and let him know how you feel, as a little help from a professional, will go a long way.

Your life shouldn't revolve around this guy. There life beyond him. Some relationships work and some don't but if it doesn't you shouldn't want to end your life. You have a lot of life to live.

I agree with Tal, you need to speak with someone because your too emotionally attach to this guy.