becky718
Dec 13, 2008, 12:29 AM
OK so here's the thing.
I'm 18 years old and I'm dating a just turned 20 year old. We have been together for almost 2 years and honestly, I really do love him. But he has an older brother who is gay, and has been dating a 31 year old guy for like 9 years.. me and the 31 year old became really close because he's so sweet and easy to talk to... he's like my best friend.. but then I started to fall for him.. there's just something amazing about him that I can't explain.. he makes me feel so good about myself and I can trust him with anything.. but I didn't really think anything of it because he's gay, until one time when I was hanging out with him, and he kissed me. Like REALLY kissed me.. it was incredible.. I know it was wrong, but it felt so right. And now every time we "hang out" we spend most of the time making out.. but it's not just a physical attraction either.. we are alike in so many ways.. but the relationship is impossible because he is so much older than me.. he's supposed to be gay.. and he's extrmely close to my boyfriend... they're like brothers.. but I can't help the way I feel about him.. and I know he feels something for me too.. he's not the type who would just mess around with my head.. I know that for a fact.. but our little "secret relationship" has been going on for a few weeks now.. I really think I'm in love with this guy, but I don't know what to do about it.. I'm so confused.. because I haven't been feeling the same way about my boyfriend lately either.. I just want to be with this other guy.. HELP? =/
I'm 18 years old and I'm dating a just turned 20 year old. We have been together for almost 2 years and honestly, I really do love him. But he has an older brother who is gay, and has been dating a 31 year old guy for like 9 years.. me and the 31 year old became really close because he's so sweet and easy to talk to... he's like my best friend.. but then I started to fall for him.. there's just something amazing about him that I can't explain.. he makes me feel so good about myself and I can trust him with anything.. but I didn't really think anything of it because he's gay, until one time when I was hanging out with him, and he kissed me. Like REALLY kissed me.. it was incredible.. I know it was wrong, but it felt so right. And now every time we "hang out" we spend most of the time making out.. but it's not just a physical attraction either.. we are alike in so many ways.. but the relationship is impossible because he is so much older than me.. he's supposed to be gay.. and he's extrmely close to my boyfriend... they're like brothers.. but I can't help the way I feel about him.. and I know he feels something for me too.. he's not the type who would just mess around with my head.. I know that for a fact.. but our little "secret relationship" has been going on for a few weeks now.. I really think I'm in love with this guy, but I don't know what to do about it.. I'm so confused.. because I haven't been feeling the same way about my boyfriend lately either.. I just want to be with this other guy.. HELP? =/