I am an intelligent pritty girl,( I am not trying to boast or anything.) but latley I let a situation get extreemly out of hand. I broke up with my boyfriend of 8 years and he started seeing one of my girlfriends, he would come back and tell me all the horrible things she said about me and agree with them. Things like I am a stupid bimbo and tell me how intelligent she is and how they talk about everything. I could go on and on. It made me feel like I want him back but I knew that was false, I also knew if I didn't try I would be stuffed up mentally for life. Believeing he is satisfied living in his fantasy world.
I'm really confused really really. I don't understand how anyone could do that to another.
I feel like I don't trust people anymore I feel stupid. I know there are other more considerate guys out there but I question my worth allot now.I am angry with her, but more at him. I don't speak with her anymore. I cannot move on. I feel like he must of liked her the whole time I was with him.I constalntly remind him of the things he said when with her, and the things he did.I feel ugly, inside and out. I canot function properly in the day. I don't work any more, I don't know what I want to do for a proffession.
I feel horrible he wasn't there for me emotionally. I feel sick inside. I just want to die sometimes.

Wendy, try to focus on your life and stay busy... find out who you are and what you really want, it can be painful but I think every problem is an oppurtunity for something better but we get stuck in the past which doesn't allow that to happen... try to let go and move forward... there is a book called "7 spiritual laws to success" by deepak chopra and it is not religious just really good info about who we are and how we function... talk to some good people, live a clean life and you will be amazed on what you can do... I wish the best for you