Reicheru-006
Dec 7, 2008, 12:22 PM
here's the down low. I was brought up catholic and my mom believes in it hXc. That's totally fine with me... up until a few years ago. It just occurred to me that she never really discouraged things I did, just saying "oh i would love it if you tried to do this". Sounds like a great mom. As a teen, I feel like she can't understand me because, that's all she ever does is encourage. I'm almost annoyed that she doesn't think anything I do is stupid. She gets "dissapointed" like when I gauged my ears she just said they were gross. When I wore skinny jeans she's all "those r interesting". Its not like I'm trying to get attention as it may sound, that's not my intention. I just want a reation that a normal mom would give. I'm already a 4g and she says "thats gross". WHAT THE HELL!! Woudnt stretching your ears out make any mom creeped out and tell me to get rid of them?
I know she's like this because she's into god so much and his ways of forgivness and stuff and giving me this whole lecture on god... but I feel like... I don't want to be that way when I grow up. I don't want to live in a perfect world and have my kid be suddenly annoyed and turned off by this. I feel like I don't want to be catholic because I don't want to be like my mom giving a jesus lesson on my values and how I can improve them. If my daughter comes out of her room with a mid-drift and she's all of 9, I'm going to say, "your not wearing that to school. march back in there. now" with a stern voice. I want my kid to have charictor instead of being posativly lead in the right direction like I was.. kinda saposed to be... but anyway, is this wrong of me to want this? And I feel like if I tried ecnoring this all and give my heart into paying attention in church, I'll end up like her.. . I'm almost scared to be like that.
I know she's like this because she's into god so much and his ways of forgivness and stuff and giving me this whole lecture on god... but I feel like... I don't want to be that way when I grow up. I don't want to live in a perfect world and have my kid be suddenly annoyed and turned off by this. I feel like I don't want to be catholic because I don't want to be like my mom giving a jesus lesson on my values and how I can improve them. If my daughter comes out of her room with a mid-drift and she's all of 9, I'm going to say, "your not wearing that to school. march back in there. now" with a stern voice. I want my kid to have charictor instead of being posativly lead in the right direction like I was.. kinda saposed to be... but anyway, is this wrong of me to want this? And I feel like if I tried ecnoring this all and give my heart into paying attention in church, I'll end up like her.. . I'm almost scared to be like that.