For the past couple of years, I haven't been doing well. I've been extremely depressed, angry, feels like everything in me is going to explode, restless, sad, crazy you name it, I felt like it. I can't think clearly, I keep forgetting stuff, making mistakes, I'm going to lose my job if I continue like this, I don't know what's wrong with me but it feels like I'm losing it. Things just keep getting worse and worse, when I started feeling like this, I kept avoiding people which made things worse, I was just running and running I couldn't stop. I didn't confide in anyone, thought it was all going to go away but it's not. Brought me into some bad situations, financially, emotionally, etc.. I don't know If I should check into a hospital or not, I feel like If I don't do anything about it now, I'll just get worse. I can't continue to live my life like this.

Hi, maybe you should go to check yourself at hospital first. Don't you have any best friend or someone that you can trust and lay on?

You seem to explain yourself quite clearly.

What do you think is the correct course of action for you?

This confusion and self defeating attitude is not good for yourself esteem.How do you want to change it?

Write back and see if we can help you.

KBC

I don't really know to be honest, that's why I'm on here asking. I think that It would be a good idea to check myself into a hospital, maybe they can calm me down and give me some advice but I won't be able to afford it. I did all of this to myself, I must admit. All my friends have gotten married, finished Colleges, are having great jobs and they are all my age, which is 21, and I haven't any of it. I just started going to school, I feel like I should have accomplished more than I already have. Myself esteem really went down, the more I kept thinking about where everyone else was, the more I kept stressing and being miserable. There was also a guy that I liked very much, thought he was the one, then he moved away but now he's back where I live. He's been trying to get in contact with me but I don't want to talk to him, I don't feel good about myself and where I'm at with my life and I keep thinking that there is something wrong with me. I'm very disgusting and negative, I wouldn't want to be around him but then again, I don't want this opportunity to pass me by, I don't know what I should do..

I do, all my friends are married thou.. I don't want to bother them with my stuff.. Maybe I should really go to the hospital

Your friends, married or not still care about you. If one is busy, call another. Offer to help them out with something. Helping other people can get you out of some of your tailspin.

Is there a free clinic in your area? Get yourself evaluated. The symptoms you described sound like depression. Others who are at a different point in their lives, even at the same age as you do not define your worth.

Don't compare. Be the best friend to yourself that you can be. Then, help others. Things will fall into place and you will look back this time and see it through different eyes.

Thank you for your advice, I will call one of them.. I really do need someone to talk to. I hope that everything falls into place, it's kind of hard to believe right now but I hope so. I'm probably going to die laughing later on in life when I look back on this...

Thanks again, and I will try to find a clinic to get an evaluation, just to make sure that it's not something other than depression..

I completely and totally can relate!! I am 36 and still struggle. You need to get checked. Chemical, hormones, or something is out of whack. Mine... we are still trying to locate. Get evaluated. Don't wait! I have lost SO MUCH in my life due to this... I would hate for you to lose anymore. I would suggest alternative medicine as well. They will look deeper than oh OK here's some prozac... (just my opinion) Find someone you can trust, Dr... Therapist... and reallly tell them. It is not easy to do but so worth it!

I agree with Need,alternative medicine people will look further into other treatments.The typical medical Dr(psych/gp) is more prone to go the prescription route,that's what they do,have studied,trained for, etc.(I wonder if this politically correct?) :)

I am a firm believer in modern medicines only because I am on them and KNOW they work,for me.

I asked you about your goals and what you thought you might want to do.

You have answered,You think checking into a hospital might be a solution,although you think you might not be able to afford the help.

How expensive is it to continue on the path you are on today, MONEY doesn't buy the happiness or relieve depression.

It might pay for therapy,medications,hospital fees,medical bills... maybe,but that isn't happiness.Don't let money get in the way of your needs to get help.

Affordability for treatment might be based on your income level,the availability of funds through many charities,the local clinic might even have emergency funds specifically available for the urgent care needs of their clients.I know the Sinnissippi Foundation here in my area has funds exactly like this.

I think you might be surprised how you look at this time in your life in retrospect,it might just be the turning point you have always been looking for.:)

Hope this helps,

KBC

Counselling is very good idea. You would get a chance to talk someone and they can help you through your problems. Talking to someone is good and once you do your be surprise at what you had on your mind. You can also have this covered through your health insurance.

Your mental health is very important and it is also good for your overall health because sometimes this can cause medical problems when your mental isn't correct.

I hope everything works out and it doesn't sound like you lost your mind but it needs sound like you need someone to talk too because you have a lot on your mind.

Thank you all, this really kind of helped. I'm going to check into a hospital, my health is more important than money, I'll figure out a way to pay...

Where are you located,maybe we can find some assistance for you there!

Atlanta, GA

You can go to your nearest hospital because every hospital have a mental health clinic and they see walk-in but they have a certain time for you to go and it might be free or a low fee.

You would see a counselor to talk to and they would assign you a therapist. Or you can call your department of health to find a clinic near you.

The first 2 are medical assistance and legal.

(404) 656-4507 - 2 Peachtree St Nw, #37, Atlanta, GA

(404) 656-4471 - 2 Peachtree St Nw, #40, Atlanta, GA

Georgia Behavioral Care
(678) 579-9662 - 7000 Peachtree-Dunwoody Rd Ne, #302, Atlanta,GA

And this one is for financial assistance
Medical Eligibility Program (MEP)... 303 Parkway Drive Ne, Atlanta, GA 30312 | 404-265-4000

You are making a good decision here,I really hope this works out well,and I would like to see you back in here when you have come out of treatment.:)

Thanks Liz, I might go tomorrow after work since I'm going to be off for the weekend but first I'm going to call those numbers that KBC has posted and see what they'll tell me... and thank you KBC for finding all those numbers. I wrote them all down and I'll give them a call tomorrow.. I'll make sure to come back on here once I've done the treatment lol :)


I'm so scared of what they'll tell me, what if they lock me up in the loony bin lol :-/

NOOOOO,that's not what they do.

Lock you up,, not on my watch... lol

A voluntary sign in at a hospital for psychiatric care(depending on your state codes(or whatever they are called))is not a signing away of your rights.

It is an admission to seeking help,nothing more.

You can leave with written request,if you want to,in 3 days(Illinois law anyway)It might be the same there.Ask them upon admission to settle your mind on that issue.

Have no fear,this isn't a horror movie episode,it's just a step in the right direction for the rest of your life!

Thank You :)

I'm glad I came on this site..

Thank You :)

I'm glad I came on this site..

That's why I am here too,your responses are always welcome and appreciated.

Don't be a stranger,we all like to hear success stories.:)