I separated from my boyfriend of 12 years about 4 years ago. I needed space and he gave me an ultimatum, which I turned down. I asked for space and he wouldn't give it. I got angry and pulled away. After about a year I wanted to get together but I guess he'd met some one elso, he was married! Didn't tell me. In fact, was calling and asking to get together with me.
I tried put this behind me. Miss him a lot, best friend I had. Anyway, he tells me he made a bad mistake marrying this lady and thinks about me everyday and loves me. I don't want to break up his marriage, but would like him back.
He called three weeks ago said he was trying figure out how to get out of marriage. I asked him to be sure what he wanted because otherwise I had to move on past him. Also, our 15 year old dog is very ill.
He made plans to come see the dog, and then never showed up. Won't return my calls.
Frustrated.
Should I assume this means he wasn't sincere and try to move on.
Also, I am going through financial hard times and miss his help around the place. Is this why I miss him so much. How do I know if just miss the memory or is it the real thing?
When we broke up I wasn't interested in a physical relationship any more. Just not attracted, although love him very much.
I'll be 50 soon and scared of being alone. Was saved two years ago and am trying haard to let Jesus be my friend and advisor. Hard some times.

Keep the faith, and don't let fear cause you to make a bad choice.

I think you should leave him alone, he is married now. Maybe if he gets divorced or something and you want to try things again. But he needs to figure out his feelings. Also maybe try telling him to not get divorced because of his love for you, but because he doesn't want to be with his wife anymore.

I think you need to pick up the pieces and move on. Do some things for yourself... hair,facial,new wardrobe maybe boost your confidence so that you may be more desirable to someone else and get out and mingle... sometimes dating other people can help you get over someone else, even if its only dating. When you lat a man know you will be sitting there waiting on them they take full advantage of that. I guarantee you that if you do start to go out he will take more notice and if its meant to be between the two of you then It will be. Good Luck protect your own heart...

You must first love yourself, before you can love any one else.