We both are married but I am in love with this matured married man for 1 and half years, we even got married secretly. I allowed sex only after our secret marriage, I have my own company which is working for his company, and I have done great amount of work for his concern for very less money.

We met once after we did every thing and I fought with him over some insecurities... I sent him abusive messages for no fault of his but because I was feeling insecure,, I was provoking him and wanted to know how important I am for him but he did not respond at all and just said that I am not thinking right and not in right framwork,, he is not calling me for past 2 weeks and my close friend is suggesting that its over he was waiting for the physical relation only.

I don't want to trust this what should I do, I can not stay without him... pleeeeeeease suggest.

First of all, I want to know HOW you can be married to two people. I assume the secret marriage isn't real. Neither is the relationship. Be honest. With him and with your husband. You can have your cake and eat it too, because eventually the truth with catch up with you, and things will get really bad. He's intiated a great window to leave him alone, and do what's righ.t